meeh

i need help...

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 12:16:32 GMT

other than money problem that i know nobody here can help me...

could someone gives recommendations of great German music?

i don't mind what genre because i have weird ears that accept any music no matter what language or genre as long as they are very good music.

help me?

someone?

First Love New

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 11:01:56 GMT

sorry..in a rush.

~~i'll repost at detox when i have time.T_T~~

warning: this post contain explicit contents.read at your own risk.

and my first attempt at sex scene.T_T

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Part 2

“Kim Jae Joon. It’s been a while. I really....really...”

A man taller than JaeJoong by probably 3.6 cm inched closer to the confused looking JaeJong who was trying to get some alcohol out of the empty bottle.

“....miss you.”

He giggled like an obsessed fan-girl.

At the same time an unusually unpleasant smell started to loom out, suffocating the bar tender who was just about to enter the private room with another bottle of vodka.

The unlucky bar tender took off almost immediately and he knew.

That guy just ate dried squid and forgot to wash his mouth.

At the mean time, JaeJoong’s face scrunched as if his eyes, eyebrows, and nose were going to come together.

JaeJoong threw him a disgusted look. He placed the vodka on the table and moved nearer to the voice.

“1st, my name is Kim Jae Joong. 2nd, excuse me for going to call you ‘bastard’, but we’ve just met less than a minute ago, Young Jae. What’s your point by saying ‘u misses me’?”

Young Jae smirked. He walked passed JaeJoong humming to the song played at the background. Unknowingly, he grabbed the vodka bottle that JaeJoong placed on the table earlier.

He spun around; facing JaeJoong’s back, holding the bottle tightly against his palm.
JaeJoong didn’t know what will happen next, but somehow....

“Aww, did I say that? I thought I said I’m GOING to miss you.”
Just about when he was about to turn around, the other guy already had his arm raised to the air and in a flash, the empty bottle ended up ‘kissing’ JaeJoong’s exposed forehead.

Small pieces of glasses splattered around the crime scene. Mostly on the table, and some even jammed deeply in JaeJoong’s bare flesh. JaeJoong came in contact with the cold unknown-material floor; his head once again hit the edge of the table.
His eyelids almost fell, closing his hazel eyes completely. In the dim room, he could still see Young Jae’s hideous smile. Amongst the heavy music banging in the space, he still could hear Young Jae’s devilish laughter echoing in his ears.
Young Jae’s face grew bigger in his view. Just when he was drifting away from the world, he felt lighter. The loud music coasting away from surrounding and he thought he heard something that sounded bizarre to his ears.

“Soon, my love. Soon.”

He knew something big will happen soon. And he hopes it has nothing to do with Yunho.

-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/

Yunho arrived at an old abandoned warehouse with gloomy atmosphere. His hair stood, almost as tall as the infamous Eiffel Tower in Paris. As he took more steps nearer to the entrance, he felt the chills coming out on his spine, while in his head thousands of images appeared flashing upon him; of their sweet and bitter moments together.

The door creaked open upon Yunho’s light kick on the ancient-looking wood. It’s ‘skin’ almost come off completely, and he swore he could see termites taking their ‘late dinner’ inside it.

And looked like they were enjoying it.

Just after 3 steps ahead, loud shrieking noise came out of nowhere; killing the silence that was there a moment before. At the 4th steps, he felt the ground under him disappeared in a speed of light and he flew downwards which made he felt like it was infinite. After a split second, a loud thud was heard and Yunho fell into a pool of dried leaves with unbelievable stench that made his nostril flared in and out uncontrollably.

He got up instantly at the view before his very own eyes.
JaeJoong, tied tightly on a chair. With dried blood smudging his angelic face, but the glow that made he falls head over heels for that guy over and over again still visible to his eyes. The fragile-looking young man was tired from the countless torture, physically and mentally.

Yunho had the urge to run like a hungry cheetah and wrapped his lover in his wide arms.
He already took a step forward but halted just before he proceeded with the 2nd step.
Why?

JaeJoong was trapped. In a glass room with no entrance. No doors. No windows.

He sluggishly dragged his legs towards the huge aquarium, eyes never a second leaving his lover image before him.
He wanted to kiss him endlessly.
He wanted to hold his face near to his beating heart. He wanted to chase the pain away. He wanted to wipe that grief of his beautiful face. He wanted to chant lullaby to his ears. But he couldn’t.

“HAHAHHAHAHHHAHAHA.”

Somewhere from behind the glass, came a man at about his age, grinning like a retard walking loosely towards him. Yunho knew him. Too well for his own good.

“ You.”
Was all Yunho could utter at that very moment. As if he lost his tongue the moment he saw JaeJoong’s condition.

“Yes, me.”

The annoying-looking man with his stupid grin still pasted on his ugly face bowed politely to Yunho as if to mock him for his stupidity.
The man kept walking around the limited space, as if he was unaware of the reek that made Yunho almost threw up.

His back was facing Yunho and in the still moment, he hummed a tune that sounded peculiarly familiar to Yunho’s ears.

Yunho in a deep thought of how and where he heard that tune. It somehow sounded typical but at the same time, he annoyed Yunho’s unconditionally.

Young Jae stopped just about when he reached the glass box where he kept JaeJoong. He twisted his neck just enough so that he could see Yunho’s expression.

He wasn’t grinning anymore but instead, his eyes were gawping intensely towards Yunho’s direction.

“You took him from me. And now, he’s mine again. You will never come between us.”
Yunho could smell danger (other than the uncomfortable stench) coming from his rival’s words.

“What did you do to him?”
Yunho gritted his teeth; he clenched his fist tightly as if he wanted to break the man’s bones and turned it into porridge.

“Well, where shall we begin?”
Young Jae somehow ended up in the glass cage, circling the vulnerable Kim JaeJoong; his eyes not ever once leaving his victim half naked figure.

Yunho could clearly see his lover’s delicate body filled with ugly bruises, along with half-dried blood; some even still dripping of his chin.

“Hmm, JaeJoong-shi.”

He let his final step end just by JaeJoong side, giving him full access of the little angel before him. He stooped low, blowing air to JaeJoong‘s face. JaeJoong was awake all that time, ever since Yunho fell out of nowhere.

He saw the look on Yunho’s face when he saw him. He saw how disappointed Yunho was when he couldn’t do anything to help him.

He wanted to scream his pain out. He wanted to cry his misses so badly.
But all he could do now just shed tears in his heart, inside his broken body.
With not much effort and energy, he wanted to cry his heart out but all he managed to say was

“Y...Yyy...Yunn...Yunnie ah”

Yunho couldn’t hear that call but unfortunately, Young Jae managed to catch every bit of his words.
He shot up straight, gazing at JaeJoong as if he wanted to eat him alive.

In one strong punch, JaeJoong’s face came in contact directly with the hard cold pavement.
Yunho ran in a speed of light, screaming his lover’s name as if to catch his love from falling but he was trapped.

Nothing he could do other than watching him suffers over and over again. JaeJoong was hurt physically but Yunho’s inside felt like being chewed; hard and slow.

“Dear Yunho, do you know what we did together last night?”

At the way he smile, the way he uttered ‘we’, the way he shot his horrid stare, the way he walked towards him, made Yunho felt like cutting the other male into chunks and feed stray dogs with his raw flesh.

Yunho wanted to smash the mirror before him but, he knew. He will never make it a success.
“What?”
Yunho answered in disgust.

“I made him scream my name.”

“AGHHHHHHHH.”

“Scream my name, whore.”

YoungJae pounded the long platinum stick, with blunt end into JaeJoong torn entrance with no mercy. Although after thousands of plea, after the nth cry, until his voice became rough, not even a bit of sympathy was shown in his dark eyes. Even after the blunt object was painted with crimson dye, he forced JaeJoong to kneel, with his sore ass pointed high to the empty heaven above them.

“ARGHH.Plee....please.....YoungJae ah.”

He sat on top of the spent body, ignoring the cries and shrieks from the creature below him. He took of his belt in an instant, and slashed the man underneath him maliciously.

A dreadful smile crept up on his face. A full and satisfying laughter erupted as JaeJoong’s moaned in pain; slowly turning into an ugly crescendo at every drop of tears JaeJoong shed.

He slipped a shiny cock-ring to the tip of JaeJoong’s treasure. He rubbed his member, vigorously

At a moment, he’ll twist the standing organ as if he wanted to part it into two. He repeated the same action, even when he turned tired. But it satisfies him. Deep inside, he knew. JaeJoong will never leave him again.

“I made him begged for my love.”

He got off JaeJoong’s body, at the same time pulling out the object out of JaeJoong, hard and slow. JaeJoong whimpered deeply; he felt like his insides were sliced slowly with blunt knife; he felt like his heart was jabbed by thousands of needles. His soul was tearing apart at the thought of Yunho came crossing his tainted mind. Yunho, not even once had ever touched him; in so many ways.

He spun JaeJoong’s limb body around, almost as if he wanted to throw the other man against the wall. He pulled JaeJoong’s hair, edging closer to his face. He spat on his face and replayed the same sentence that he demanded from him over and over again.

“Who is your lover?”

With the last trace of energy he has, JaeJoong lifted his half-closed lids; giving YoungJae an empty stares. With great effort, he managed to lift his bleeding hand and traced YoungJae’s well-shaped jaw line. He forced a small smile before mouthing a word that made his dead spirit jet to life.

“Yunho.”

First love - 13

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 05:07:40 GMT

finally i'm able to update.will post another part soon if there's positive responds.no need to add if u want to read prev. chapters. i'll un-private them in a short time.^_^

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13

Somehow, when we separated that night, with ‘the me’ half naked, screaming Junsu over a bloody boxer and also half naked Yoochun almost jumping on Junsu, again because of a bloody boxer hanging on the back of the door, we never met again for over a week.

It’s been a week, and I’ve been staring the blank screen of my newly brought LG flip cell phone that caused ¾ of my monthly pocket money.
What happened to my old phone?

--rewind--

One week, ½ days, 12 hours, 59 minutes, 33 seconds before....

Jung Yunho, a 18 years old student, was spotted somewhere in Seoul half-dragging a sex-crazed-looking young man, at about his age out from an unknown house with squeaking high-pitch mystery noise, believed to be coming from inside the house.

The witnesses, a group of ~~bitches~~ school girls with unbelievable short skirt and tiny uniform said

“Seriously, that half naked guy was so hot that I almost jizzed in my skirt. Now, if you take me to him, I’ll make him and took his jeans off those long sexy legs. And I bet he has hairless- “

-Pause-

Yunho: What are trying to do? =,=””

-Play-

Forgive us for the sudden interruption.

Currently, the criminal is having mental disorder from the sudden missing of his lover, Kim Jae Joong.

Moving on, again on the same day, the criminal was seen by a group of drunken old women on the road, riding a motorbike with the same sex-crazed young man from the house, but unfortunately, this time, both were completely dressed.

The sex-crazed men, who believed to be called as Yoochun (from our trusted source), which later seemed like was struggling with both of his hands roaming around the criminal’s abdomen. A huge truck could be seen being dangerously close to the motorbike.

As the criminal looked like he was prying Yoochun’s lips away from his face, the fierce struggling had causes the bike to lose its balance and ended up at the side of the road, with broken side mirrors, giggling Yoochun and swearing Jung Yunho.

That’s all from me, Tsushio Lee. Stay tune for more breaking news. ^_^

--forward--

Please ignore that. Just so you know, my hand phone broke in an accident. If only it wasn’t because of that stupid Park Yoochun who had thought me as JaeJoong’s brother, we wouldn’t had ended up walking all the way to my house which happened to be ONLY about 2 hours and 5 minute from the ‘crime scene’.

And where am I now? I’m in JaeJoong’s house watching over his immature little brother from running away to meet Yoochun. And I’m watching the same Spanish soap-theatre for the past 3 hours.

doko kani One Dream
itsu no hika Still on
Two Dreams ugokidasu Brand new world
dareka o aisuru youni
Dream Dream

Unknown number came up flashing on the screen.

Could it be JaeJoong?

“Hello.”

“Jung Yun........ho.”

“I know I have wonderful name but do you have to say it that....passionate-ly? =.=" ”

“I know where JaeJoong is.”

Fuck. Who the hell is this?

“Spit it out.”

Behind the scene:

Scene: Yunho dragging Yoochun out the house

Take 1

Yunho: *sweating heavily*

Yoochun: Love, don’t worry. I’ll come back soon.
*hands reaching out for the door*

Junsu: Sugarpuffs, come back soon.

Yoochun: I will. I’ll miss your sex voice. I’ll miss your duck butt. I’ll miss your huge ***** in my mouth.

PD: CUT!!!!!!!^%^$%&&*&*^&%$#%$!!!!!

Take 2

Yoochun: Love, don’t worry. I’ll come back soon. *hands reaching out for the door*

Junsu: Sugarpuffs, come back soon.

JaeJoong (from out of nowhere): Yunho yah, I bought an ice-cream. Would you like some?

Yunho: *drops Yoochun on the cement* Coming!!!!
Yoochun & Junsu: =.=””””

PD: .........

Take 3

Yoochun: Love, don’t worry. I’ll come back soon. *hands reaching out for the door*

Junsu: Sugarpuffs, I’ll give you a nice ‘treat’ if you come back soon.

Yoochun: *kicks Yunho on his shin* Junsu yah, prepare the ‘treat’!!!!

Junsu: Yoochunnie~~

Yunho: O_o

PD: BRING ME ANOTHER ROLE OF FILM!!!!

JaeJoong: PD-shi, do you want some ice-cream?

request again~

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 09:07:20 GMT

help~

help me~~

why is it so hard to find japanese romanized lyric?!??!?!O_o

and mp3 download!??!?!T_T

can someone please recommend me sites to download japanese mp3 like news,arashi...xD..and more of course.xD

and where to find japanese romanized lyric?O_o

someone again~

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 12:05:14 GMT

find me usher - pop ya collar

please~~!!

T_T

people~someone~help~

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 05:28:43 GMT

someone

sorry~

let me start again

if someone ever happen to read this post,can u help me t0 find these songs~please~in mp3 format

frankie j - dont want to try
westlife 'the love' and 'home' full album

somehow when looking for korean songs it was easy for me but for english songs....*fall backwards*...yeah~xD

please~~i need these before i go back to uni this saturday~

dOWNLOAd cONTINUe.....

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 04:14:11 GMT

IMPORTANT!!!

MY MP3 DOWNLOAD ENTRY WILL BE..CHANGE TO THIS ENTRY.

SO, ALL UPDATE WILL BE DONE HERE.U STILL CAN MAKE A REQUEST AT THE OLD ENTRY, BUT WILL BE FULFILLED HERE.
HAPPY DOWNLOADING.^_^

Yiruma - P.H.O.N.i

01 - Piano.mp3
02 - Love.mp3
03 - Joy.mp3
04 - Loanna.mp3
05 - Ribbonized.mp3
06 - Eve.mp3
07 - Present.mp3
08 - Letter.mp3
09 - Sky.mp3
10 - Journey.mp3
11 - Hope.mp3

JJ LIN - SIXOLOGY

01 Sixology.mp3
03 Xiao Jiu Wo (feat Charlene Choi).mp3
04 Hei Wu Shi.mp3
05 Zui Chi Bi.mp3
06 You Ni Xuan Ze (feat Nong Fu FAMA).mp3
07 Always Online.mp3
08 Jie Dao.mp3
09 Zhu Jue (feat MACHI).mp3
10 Wo Hai Xiang Ta.mp3
11 Dian Yi Ba Huo Ju.mp3
12 Qi Dai Ni De Ai (feat Jin Sha).mp3
13 Cries In A Distance.mp3
14 Ai Yu Xi Wang.mp3

HWANG PROJECT FEAT PARK HYO SHIN

01 Fantastic World.mp3
02 The Castle of Zoltar.mp3
03 Majimak Insa.mp3
04 Majimak Insa Part II (Bossa Nova Vers.).mp3

TOHOSHINKI - THE SECRET CODE

02 Bolero -short ver.-.mp3
03 Jumon -MIROTIC-.mp3
04 Doushite -short ver.-.mp3
05 Purple Line.mp3
06 Summer Dream.mp3
08 We are! -short ver.-.mp3

GOLDEN BRIDE OST

01. sarang ee dduh nan da - Han Ul.wma
02. hyang soo - Kim Dong Wook.wma
03. hyang soo (Saxophone Version) - L.wma
04. jang mi ga ji gi jun eh - Park Sun Joo, K.wma;

New Uploads

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 08:06:28 GMT

erghhh

warfggjbacbas!!!

lj failed on me.I cant edit my mp3 download post.T_T

so,i'm posting these here.before lj decided to hate me, i added 3 albums on the prev post.please check it out.

and these are when lj..*sigh*.Take and leave quietly please.N it would be better if u leave a thank you comment.^^

BB Remember

1. INTRO - 모두 다 소리쳐 (Everybody Scream).mp3
2. 오, 아, 오 (Oh, Ah, Oh).mp3
3. Sunset Glow.mp3
4. 반짝반짝 (Sparkling, Sparkling).mp3
5. STRONG BABY (Seungri SOLO).mp3
6. WONDERFUL.mp3
7. Foolish Love.mp3
8. Haru Haru (ACOUSTIC VERSION).mp3
9. Lies [REMIX].mp3
10. Last Farewell [REMIX].mp3
11. REMEMBER.mp3

Epik HIgh - Love Scream

01 Butterfly Effect.mp3
02 Fallin' (feat. Jo YeJin from Lucite Tokki).mp3
03 Harajuku Days.mp3
04 Habit (feat. Ha Dong Kyun of Wanted).mp3
05 Shh.mp3
06 1 Minute and 1 Second (feat. Taru).mp3
07 1825 (Paper Cranes).mp3

JJ LIn "West Side"

01.JJ Lin-Monologue.mp3
02.JJ Lin-The Killa.mp3
03.JJ Lin-The Killa @ Awakening.mp3
04.JJ Lin-West Side.mp3
05.JJ Lin-Bored (JJ-Fusion).mp3
06.JJ Lin-Singled Out.mp3
07.JJ Lin-K-O.mp3
08.JJ Lin-Boyfriend.Girlfriend.mp3
09.JJ Lin-L-O-V-E.mp3
10.JJ Lin-Love Is In The Air.mp3
11.JJ Lin-Flying On Your Own.mp3
12.JJ Lin-Baby Baby.mp3
13.JJ Lin-Freedom.mp3

A LOVE TO KILL OST

01. 더 이상 (Howl).mp3
02. 이 죽일 놈의 사랑 (이수영).mp3
03. Geu Rae Do... Sarang Ee Da - Shin Seung Hoon.mp3
04. 꿈 (Dream) (K.Will).mp3
05. 애루 (愛淚) (지타).mp3
06. 어쩌다 (태완).mp3
07. 재회 (임현정).mp3
08. 쉬어 (Glue).mp3
09. 이 까짓 사랑 (태완).mp3
10. 속이지마 (Don’t Fool Me) (Glue).mp3
11. 꿈 (Dream)(Ballad Ver.) - K.Will.mp3
12. 이 죽일 놈의 사랑 (Inst.).mp3
13. Geu Rae Do... Sarang Ee Da (Instrumental).mp3
Kim Young Jae - Goo Reum (Kang Min Goo Theme).mp3

SECRET OST

01. Opening.mp3
02. 脚踏车.mp3
03. 早操.mp3
04. 淡水海边.mp3
05. 斗琴.mp3
06. 湘伦小雨四手联弹.mp3
07. Ride With Me.mp3
08. 父与子.mp3
09. 情人的眼泪.mp3
10. First Kiss.mp3
11. 女孩别为我哭泣.mp3
12. 晴天娃娃.mp3
13. 阿郎与阿宝.mp3
14. 与父共舞.mp3
15. 路小雨.mp3
16. The Swan.mp3
17. Flash Back.mp3
18. Secret (慢板).mp3
19. Angel.mp3
20. 小雨写立可白Ⅰ.mp3
21. 小雨写立可白Ⅱ.mp3
22. Secret (加长快板).mp3
23. 琴房.mp3
24. Ending.mp3
25. 不能说的秘密.mp3

^ this movie starring Jay Chou and the girl that i dont know her name.I like this movie and all the piano songs in here.Hence, I found this album.Great for piano lovers.LOve the tracks.^^

sorry~

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 07:32:32 GMT

sorry~

T_T

plan to share videos is halted.T_T

final exam is killing me~~T________________T

PEEPS!!!!READ MEEH!!!

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 17:11:58 GMT

WAHH!!

nah~...nuting interesting.just wanted to say i updated my download kpop post.xD.

added big bang new album

maybe will add mirotic,jay chou - secret ost album,jj lin - west side album,and jay chou latest album(after finished the request.cant promise.:x)

and..taken from solocry.xD

Which dbsk member are you? Your Result: Xiah Junsu Xiah Junsu? Well, let's see... You have a cute and adorable aura around you that people cant resist. You love cracking jokes and puns on the scene when there is obvious tension in the room. Cheering up is your specialty. You hate it when friends are fighting and tend to cry if they do. You would love to have a positive outlook on the world, because you are somewhat negative. You may seem like you're perfect but your not, just close. And just like junsu, you excell in schoolwork! YOU'RE A XIAH JUNSU!!!
Max Changmin
U-know Yuhno
Hero JaeJoong
Micky Yoochun
Which dbsk member are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

coughs

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 05:51:47 GMT

taken from lavenie_2619 who took it from zerotrigeal who took it from her friend whom i dont know.xD.

feel free to fill it.>_<

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

cars

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 03:21:15 GMT

ignore this post.xD

http://automobiles.honda.com/all-models.aspx
http://www.mazdausa.com/MusaWeb/displayPage.action?pageParameter=modelsAllMZ3
http://automobiles.honda.com/accord-coupe/

[FIC] First Love 12

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 17:14:46 GMT

First Love 12

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 17:11:22 GMT

Title: First Love
Author: tsushio
Pairing: Jaeho/Yunjae,Yoosu
Length: chaptered
Genre: Romance/a bit humor
Rating: PG13
Summary: Kim JaeJoong regain his mind and memory.Young Jae love the change.What will happen next?

warning :
1. The chapters are short.
2. My grammars and vocabs aren't perfect.Mistakes are everywhere.
3. Sometimes it can be confusing.
4. I've warn you.xD

as promise,I post this chapter now.xp.I'm working on more chapters.I planned to do it lik earlier but becoz my aunt came,I couldnt.And it had been a week straight I had to sleep late and woke up freakisly early.T_T.I was busy with the hospital matters,the signatures,the..copies of the letter,the..wutever there are...and just now I've realize that I forgot to buy more...well..not sure what it is called in english so lets just forget it.And I had to go like tomorrow...urhg...I'm tired.Now, if they rejected my application, I'll just shove those papers into their ass.Then stand in the middle of busy road and let a huge truck hit my body.xD

okay...you can skip that and just read the chapter.I did not make a cut coz I forgot the code.

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12
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Yunho's POV

It’s Sunday. I just realized if after I saw a calendar marked with black tint on 19 June.

I'm sitting at the edge of JaeJoong's bed, holding tight a piece of white paper with JaeJoong's handwritings on it.

"Sorry Yunho, I have to leave now. After I take care of everything, I’ll come home. Please tell Junsu and can you please, keep Yoochun away from Junsu.

The almighty Kim JaeJoong."

I spent almost half of the night bawling my eyes out, chanting 'don’t leave me' into his ears and now I got him leaving me again. Even karma is better than this.

What could I do? As a guy, the only things I could do are........

Sighing heavily.

I had a bad feeling about this. He left me half naked on my his bed with a note attached to my chest. Who’d have done that??

How I got half naked? I have no idea.Dont ask me.

If I don’t know him, I'd say he tried to rape me. But I knew him TOO well.

Lesson 3 : Kim JaeJoong hate skin-ship with human being (I'm being serious).Including his parents and his only brother. But if you wanted to try the taste of his toes in your nose, just try a simple hand gesture to his arms. You’ll never forget the feeling of Kim JaeJoong 'inside' you for life.

It was true. Until last night, when he tried to rip my shirt off. I thought he changed but I was wrong. The moment my chest revealed to the open air, he suddenly had both his hands covering his mouth. Looked like he was having difficulty to breath. He ran towards the bathroom and god knows what he did in there.

He'll never change. But I will change him.Hehehehe. (I think you could see horns growing on my head.)

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~"

Huh? I think that's Junsu.

The voice came from the bathroom.

The one in Junsu's room of course.

Now, where’s his room?

To the left, there’s a door.

I opened the door and a king sized bed with blue sheet could be seen. Facing the window, the room coloured with blue and white paint, with a slight touch of British style furniture.

From the window, you could see a nice view of Seoul city. In the morning, you'll get to breath in a fresh air-

Pause

Tsu-shi, you made me sounded like a promoter, advertising an apartment. -_-
And this house is NOT even an apartment.

Author : should I change it?

Play.

Enough to say that this room is too nice to be Junsu's.

To the left of this room there's another door.

I cracked the door opened just enough so that I could peek inside it.

And I saw Junsu cringing, while he had his hands pointing towards my direction.

Well, not exactly at me but a bit higher.

"What's wrong?"

I asked but he looked too shocked to speak properly and all that came out of his mouth was only

"Jjhgjngcf rgcjerf%rgf rcfgerj$%%* %G%&%&"

(Reminded me of the part Junsu spoke in 'Kenya' during Starshow.xD)

So, I decided to enter his room, as I closed the door behind me I turned around to see what've make him looked like a constipated polar bear.

The same look pasted on my face when I saw it.

A black boxer hanging on the back of the door, with huge hole at the middle of it. There were huge writings in red covering almost half of the boxer saying

"MICKY, LEAVE MY BROTHER ALONE OR I'LL MAKE YOU WORSE THAN YOUR BOXER."

Just after I finished reading the 'boxer’, the door cracked opened and Yoochun showed up wearing a towel loosely around his small waist.

"Junsu, I still can’t find my boxer. Did you find it.......?”

His left eyebrow went higher and he dragged the last word longer before

"-hereeeeeeeeeee~Ahhhhhhh!!!"

Yeah.The same expression.

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4 days later...

JaeJoong's POV

*at the club*

After I left the house with a note for Yunho and my 'soon-to-brother-in-law’, I-

Wait, where’s the list again?

Oh yeah, in the back pocket of my jeans.

KIM JAEJOONG ~~TO DO~~ MUST DO LIST

1. Teach Young Jae a lesson (for trying to kill me)
2. Make Sang Choo pay all the debts (checked the account book, he got lot more to pay)
3. Retire
4. Set the team free
5. Propose Yunho.
~~5. Find Junsu a girlfriend.~~
5. Kill Micky.

Again, I'm here to go on with the 3rd thing in my list, to retire.

Why retiring?

Well, obviously as a wife, I can’t join any gang and have to stay at home with my husband.

Even if he allowed me to stay with the team, I'm going to refuse.

After all, I wanted to be a good wife to my hubby and make him happy.

I'll cherish him like a new-born baby.

In the morning, I’ll make him a perfect breakfast. Can you imagine? The look on his face when he eat my hand-made strawberry cake, along with his favourite cappuccino made from fresh grounded coffee beans picked by me.Ahhh~

After he leaves to work, I’ll wait for him at home at the same time preparing for a romantic candle-light dinner.

Can you imagine that?

And at night, after we finished our dinner-

Pause.

Author : *coughs*Could you please move on to the next scene please?

*%#$%#$#$#%^%^$%#$%#$#$#%

Play.

As wished from the author, I couldn’t move on with my story and had to proceed to the next scene which happened in the club.

My whole team sitting around the oval-shaped table with huge hole in the middle, giving their fullest attention towards me.

Beside me was Young Jae, standing straight like a soldier.

"I..."

I began.

"I'm retiring."

Gasped could be heard from every corner of the room. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Young Jae boring a look at my pretty face.

My team, known as the toughest team amongst the gangs in Seoul. But at a moment like this, there were acting like girls who got rejected from their boyfriends.

Some had their hands covering their mouth. Some I saw were started to get teary.

As a going-to-be-ex-leader, I could only sigh.

"I'm sorry. I’d very special moments with all of you. And since I started it, I'm going to end this too. I set you all free. Be good and never get involve into gang again. It’s not healthy."

Oh my god.

At a moment like this, I feel like I'm not me.

3 years ago, I was the one who said 'Let us be the strongest and biggest team in Korea and ASIA!!!!!!"

Now, it's like I'm telling them to give up and go home.

And I feel like crying also.

It’s all because I fell in love. Stupid Jung Yunho.

The boys started to get calmer. Just before I step out from the room, one of them I remembered as Kwon Chae Moo said

"Leader, be happy and don’t forget to invite us to your wedding with Yunho hyung."

How did he know?

I had no idea. Probably Young Jae told them.

I don’t care. I already out of the room and was passing by the bar before I grab a bottle of vodka as the dam of tears broke in my eyes.

So true. I’m one sensitive leader.

Now, where’s the list again?

Found it.

KIM JAEJOONG ~~TO DO~~ MUST DO LIST

1. Teach Young Jae a lesson (for trying to kill me)
~~2. Make Sang Choo pay all the debts (checked the account book, he got lot more to pay)~~
2. Find Park Sang Choo.(Young Jae said he's looking for me.)
3. Retire
4. Set the team free
5. Propose Yunho.
~~5. Find Junsu a girlfriend.~~
5. Kill Micky.

“Oh, well. What we have here? Kim Jae Joon. It’s been a long time since our last ‘meeting’.”

A guy with dirty brown hair, munching something which I thought dried prawn based on the smell but was wrong when he spat a huge hairball to his feet.Eww.What is he? A cat?

He even said my name wrongly.

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Behind the scene

["AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~"
Junsu screams was coming from his bedroom.]

Take 1

Junsu : AHHHHHHHH!
Yunho : *kicked the door opened* No fear, my dear.Super Yunho is coming for rescue.
Junsu : O_o
Yunho : O_O.Oh.I thought you were Joongie.
PD : Cut!
Yoochun : *screaming from behind the set* That’s suppose to my line!!!

Take 2

Junsu : AHHHHHHH!
Yunho : *entering the room* What’s wrong?
Junsu : *jumping into Yunho’s arm* I was scared. There’s a spider on the ceiling.
JaeJoong : KIM JUNSU,I’LL KILL YOU!!!!
PD : *sigh*CUT. Take him out.

Take 3

Junsu : AHHHHHHHH!
Yunho : *pushing the door* What’s wr-
Yoochun : *kicking Yunho from the outside* Don’t worry, my baby. Your sexy Chunnie is here.
JaeJoong : *clapping excitedly* BRAVO.BRAVO.

PD : *throws the script* I GIVE UP!

YAY!!

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 09:06:56 GMT

wahahaha~

just one hour ago,I brought my new notebook!!!

xDD

new..!!!!!xD

sorry...I had a stomach pain felt like I just miscariaged a twin..xD

so..the happiness is quite in control..xD

but the spelling just all over the place!!!xD

heck.who cares?xD

First Love 11

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 07:21:48 GMT

Title: First Love
Author: tsushio
Pairing: Jaeho/Yunjae,Yoosu
Length: chaptered
Genre: Romance/a bit humor
Rating: PG13
Summary: Kim JaeJoong regain his mind and memory.Young Jae love the change.What will happen next?

warning :
1. The chapters are short.
2. My grammars and vocabs aren't perfect.Mistakes are everywhere.
3. Sometimes it can be confusing.
4. I've warn you.xD

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Yunho's POV

Jae Joong took off from the hospital. He left me in used-to-be-his room in his hospital clothes, with no money. Thank god he didn't take my bike with him or I'll have to walk with this clothes. As much as I love him, sometimes it was very hard to understand his complicated mind.

I woke up by voices of two female nurses panicking on how to tell the doctor about Jae Joong disappearance.

"Oh my god, how should we do now?"

"I don't know. That pretty boy ran away."

"I know. What do you think I'm doing here with you? Sightseeing?"

"Hey,there's another hot boy there, on the couch."

"Oh my~Look at his abs."

"His mole look so delicious~"

Perverted nurses. I better go before they rape me.

"Look..He’s getting up. Is he going to leave also?"

Duh~.Then, what does it look like to you? Stripping?

"No. He’s stripping!!!!Kya~~"

=.="

Wonder how she passed the nurse examination?

That's how I left the stupid nurses squealing like fangirls.I rode my bike, thinking whether should I see Jae Joong at his house or go straight home.

Looking at myself in this ridiculous white hospital clothes, I better get home first to change. I’d search for Jae Joong later.

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"Yunho, you are home."

Umma.

Suppose to be my 'umma'.My dad married her 7 years ago, only after 5 months of my mom's death caused by a tumor in her head.Well,that was what the doctor said. But I don't believe him.

And I hate her. She’s never my mother. Will never be.

"Yunho, where have you been?"

I continue climbing the stairs.

I hate to see her. She’s the most fake person I've ever known. In front of my dad, she put an angel mask; she fooled everybody in this house. Even the maids.Seok Jin, the gardener knew her long before she married my dad.

But sadly, he suddenly became mute. Just a day after dad got married to that witch. What a coincidence. Dad said it was an accident. But I saw what she did to him.

Flashback

"Han Seok Jin, shut your mouth if you wanted to live longer."

"Kang Yoon Ji, leave this family."

She turned her head around to face him. There’s no terror in his eyes. He looked determined. He knew, this woman is going to destroy this family sooner or later.

"Please,Kang Yoon Ji.They are very good people. I love them as if they are my own blood. Please leave."

She spat in disgust. While walking towards him, each corner of her lips went higher as she mocked his voice

"What if I don't?"

"I'll have to tell Mr. Jung everything about you. Including what you did to my brother."

She stop in her track and looked like she was thinking about his offer.

He thought she was about to surrender but somehow, she managed to say

"He's not going to believe you. You are just a garderner.Your place in the garden, playing with dirt and slimy worms. Never interfere with my life.No.OUR life. Stay where you should be. Once a slave is forever a slave."

She let out a high-pitch laugh, tilting her head backward as if she's enjoying that little moment.

But at his reply, she lost her poisonous words.

"I'm a slave. As you said, forever a slave. But Mr. Jung never treated me like a slave. He cherished me like his son. And at every word I said, he never doubted my honesty."

She glared at him. She knew how Jung Seung Woo treated his only gardener. She knew how much he loves him.

Just when the 18 years old Han Seok Jin was about to walk away from the room,Kang Yoon Ji quickly grabbed a string she saw on coffee table and held it on Seok Jin's neck.

He struggled to let himself free from the thin string that looked like it belongs to a violin. As a man, obviously he's stronger than the 24 years old woman. He managed to push her from her back and she fell on the carpet.

He was about to run towards the door that seemed too far from the place he's laying, panting heavily.

But she was fast. In her hand, she’s already holding a small knife that she hid under the carpet earlier.

She stormed towards Seok Jin who's still trying to breathe properly and slashed his neck with the knife. Blood smudging the sofa, curtain and some on the carpet.Seok Jin fell on the floor, holding to his bleeding neck. His eyes shot opened, almost popping out of its socket. He looked like he's trying to say something to her, but she's just stood before him, enjoying every second of it.

After counting to 60, she let out a scream and cut her right arm on purpose, as if it was an accident.

He could only look at her, smiling.

Because he saw the future inside the closet. Jung Yunho.

End of Flashback.

I learned to hate her since then.

She's being nice to me. I bet dad must be home by now from his business trip to Japan.

"I'm sorry, Mrs. Jung. I’m tired and I have no fucking care about you so please excuse myself."

I replied her in a full-manner but at the same time, I tried to annoy her.

"Young man, see me in reading room. Now."

That voice belongs to my dad. As I thought, he’s back from Japan. No wonder I haven't heard any curse word came out from her filthy mouth.

I turned around to look at them, but she already had her back on me and appa already in the room.

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"Yunho."

"Appa."

What an awkward silence we had in that already-morgue-like room.

Why morgue? Have you ever heard any noise in a morgue? If you did, I’m not going to tell you more about this room.

It is quiet and peaceful in a very creepy way. Like a morgue.

"Yunho, I want you to get married."

"Me too."

That's me, answering to my dad's question. For a while, let’s forget about that witch. She annoys me more than Young Jae who's kept getting his hands in my lover's pants.

"Good. Next week-"

"What?!!?Next week?!?! I have to propose him first~"

He's probably just kidding. I haven't confessed to JaeJoong.And now I have to propose him?

Aish, he’s going to kill me.

"You don't have to propose him.Wait.I mean her...WAIT!!"

He slammed his fist on the table and the glass of vodka shook.

He looked at me as if he's trying to swallow me. His wrinkles started to get visible and his left eyes twitching nonstop.

"Did you said, he?"

I nodded innocently. He fell on his couch with his hands clenching to his chest.

"Oh my, dear.Are you okay?"

As much as I tried to tell myself that she's not exist in that room, I could never deny the reality that's she's alive and is breathing the same air as us.

"Oh my. Our son is a gay.Oh my.Oh oh oh my~"

Staring at her thin lips smudged with thick maroon lipstick muttering the most annoying letter in English alphabets made me feel like shoving the vodka bottle down her throat.

"Jung Yunho."

Dad got up. He looked down at me in a very scary glare.

"You are going to marry a woman. That’s it.Dont you ever disobey me."

"Why appa? What’s wrong with a man? I love him. As much as you love my mom."

I already on my feet. The witch shook hearing the word 'mom' coming from my mouth.

"What's wrong!?!? You tell me.A man in love with a man.Thats what's wrong.Its not normal. A man is created to be with a woman. It is said in every religion in the world that a man place is with a woman. Not with a man!!!!!"

"So, you are telling me that you don’t love my mom?"

He looked down and his feet, as she's massaging his arms.

"I did. I did love her. But my love now is for Mrs. Jung Yoon Ji.But that's not the point here. You are marrying Shim Ah Ra and that's final from me. Good night."

He walked away from me, with her in his arms. Just when he was about to step out of the door, I spoke for the last time.

"As much as I hate Ms. Kang Yoon Jin in our family, I never stop you from marrying her. No matter how bad she is, no matter what she did to me, no matter how she hurt Seok Jin hyung.Because I know you love her. I see in your eyes. She’s perfect in your eyes. I’ve sacrifice my happiness for yours. Why can’t you let me find my own happiness outside of this fake family? With the one whom I love. Knowing that he's going to love me. Probably more than you did.Dont you want your only son to be happy at least once before he left this cruel world?"

"Your happiness is with Shim Ah Ra."

He left me in the dim room, after tearing my heart apart, leaving it shattering on the floor.

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"Jae Joong ah...”

Urghh.Who's that?

What time is now??

"JaeJoong~it’s me, Yunho."

Jung Yunho, do you know how much pain and hard times I had to endure just to get into my room?

If you had a brother making love with his boyfriend in the kitchen, you’ll know what I've gone through.

And how did you get into my room!??!

You are lucky that I'm too tired to response to your ugly whining even though I thought that was cute and you know that-

"JaeJoong, dont leave me again. It hurt a lot when you left 2 years ago."

I'm sorry, Yunho.If it’s not because of the laziness that is winning against my lust, I’d jump on you and we'll have the greatest sex you'd ever have in your whole life. And I know that Tsushio is not good enough to write a smut scene.

Pause.

me : OI!!!

What?!?!

Play.

Wait. What is this liquid on my lips?

Can’t be my own drool because I've never ever drooled while sleeping.

Pause.

me : *coughs*

Shut up! Just keep writing!!

Play.

Yunho was crying.

Because the liquid drops tasted salty and cold.

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Yunho's POV

I jumped into his room. He doesn’t have any tree in his lawn. How I managed to enter his room?

Don't ask. I almost fell from his 2 storey house and break my skull.

Lesson 1 : Never ever climbed up anything you thought look like a strong PVC pipe when it might probably not enough to take your more than 60 kg. weight.

He's sleeping. He looked so peaceful. Like an angel. I tried to wake him up. But at the second call, his eyebrows became close together as if they were one. As far as I've known him for years, I knew his sleeping habit very well.

Lesson 2 : Never EVER disturb a sleeping KIM JAEJOONG if you don’t want to turned into a salmon sushi.

"JaeJoong, dont leave me again. It hurt a lot when you left 2 years ago."

Remembering a year leaving without you, I felt as if I wanted to follow you into your fake grave.

And as you read above, I broke into tears.

I laid my body besides him, feeling his calm breathing against my chest. Staying this close to him made feel like taking him into my pocket and ran away to a place where there is no one to stop us.

No Sang Choo.

No Young Jae.

No Shim Ah Ra.

No Kang Yoon Ji.

No Jung Seung Woo.

There's only Jung Yunho, Kim Jae Joong, and Jung Sun Hee.

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end chapter 11
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I was planning to post ths last night but I spent the whole night reading 'how to love a robot in 10 days'.xD

before you ask me anything,this chapter is about Yunho.About his family.

can also called as Yunho side story.

Jung Seung Woo is his dad.

Kang Yoon Ji his step-mother.

Han Seok Jin is a gardener.Just enough that you know he's very close to Jung's family.No need extra information coz he's just an extra.xD

Shim Ah Ra just a random girl that Seung Woo wanted Yunho to marry.No need to know more coz she's just another extra.xD

and finally,Jung Sun Hee,Yunho's mother.

Yunho didnt believe the doctor that she died coz of a tumor.But she did died becoz the tumor explode in her head.
Yunho didnt want to believe coz he hated his dad so much after marrying Kang Yoon Ji.

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Behind the scene.

[What you see...]

She stormed towards Seok Jin who's still trying to breathe properly and slashed his neck with the knife. Blood smudging the sofa, curtain and some on the carpet.Seok Jin fell on the floor, holding to his bleeding neck. His eyes shot opened, almost popping out of its socket. He looked like he's trying to say something to her, but she's just stood before him, enjoying every second of it.

[Behind this scene..]

She stormed towards Seok Jin who's still trying to breathe properly and slashed his neck with the knife. Blood smudging the sofa, curtain and some on the carpet.

Crew 1 : *spraying the paint*

JaeJoong : YAH!!WATCH OUT THAT CHAIR!!IT IS MADE IN INDIA THAT COST A MONTH YOUR SALARY!!

PD : Cut.

Take 2

Crew 1 : *spraying the paint on the wall and carpet*

JaeJoong : OI!!THAT CARPET MADE OF BENGAL TIGER'S FURR!!!IT COST MORE THAN YOUR ONE YEAR INCOME!!!

PD : CUT.

Crew 2 : *whispering*Why we have to shoot this scene in his room?
PD : *whispering*We used too much money on the food and other things like...you know...his clothes,make up~

JaeJoong : HEY!!THE WALL!!KEEP YOUR HANDS AWAY FROM THE WALL!!

My heart feels sorry

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 16:54:04 GMT

Title: My heart feels sorry
Pairing: JaeHo
Genre: Romance
Disclaimer: They are never mine.
Summary: Love has its own time, its own season, and its own reasons from coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
--Kent Nerburn

Warning : It is quite short and simple.Inspired by a music video by lee ji hoon.xD.Mistakes are everywhere.You had been warned.xD.Sorry.Enjoy.

teaser : its a bit sad I think.hurm.I dont know.xD

You fluttered your eyes open just to be greeted by a bright blinding light came right through the opened window.

Where am I?

You rubbed your aching forehead, wincing in pain as if there were thousands of needles pricking through your thin skin.

You looked around and found yourself sitting on an old wooden chair in a small room, adorned by spider webs hanging from each corner on the wall.

The same room. The same feeling.

Wandering your pair of brown eyes, your heart ached as your mind bewildered with many hanging thoughts inside of your head.

It was our home.

In the room, there was a king size bed covered with messy maroon silk sheet. You headed towards the bed that you used to spend your precious time with him when your eyes caught a sight of a shiny object placed nicely under a pile of white cloths on a table. You lifted the clots carefully, as dusts came out flying. You let out a small cough.

It was a silver box. A small platinum box. Probably a ring box. You thought.

You don't know why. You don't know how.

The pain you felt in your heart vanished at the sight of the box. But one drop of tear fell in your palm. You brought your fingers on your face. It was wet. Your face was wet. Without your awareness, you’ve been crying. Your heart wasn't aching anymore, but more tears pouring like a fountain.

Just then you realized. You missed him.

You lifted your head and your gaze met with a mediums mirror. You see nothing. You couldn't see your own reflection. You couldn't see your tears. But reflection of your past with him came flashing in the mirror like an old movie.

You were running from him. You in you white wifebeater, revealing your bare chest. With brown hair almost touching your collar bone. Your flawless face kissed by the cool breezes. You shone under the sun ray. You were beautiful. A beautiful man. He once said that to you.

He was chasing you. He in his black sweater, his well toned muscles. With black spiky hair, he panted as cold sweats trickling down from his forehead. You thought how handsome he was. You thought how sexy he looked. You thought how addictive his scent was. He still is.

More tears streaming down your cheeks like an overflowing river.

As you saw the looked on your face, the laugh that escaped your perfect plump lips, the kiss he planted on your sweaty neck.

As you looked at the joy painted on his face, the touched you gave when he kissed you, every love in the world that you drew on him.

You listened to his voice whining, how salty you tasted. You argued back. You said he made you ran a mile just for a dried flower. He leaned closer to you face. Just when your nose touched his, he replied

"It’s not just a dried flower. It was the flower I gave you the moment I laid my eyes on your face."

Where is he?

You missed him. You wanted to see him. You have to find him.

You ran out of the old house.

You opened the huge carved wooden door. A bright light came illuminating, greeting your sight when suddenly everything went dark. You couldn’t see nor hear anything other than your own breathing.

You felt as if the whole world around you was spinning in your head.

You closed you eyes, praying and hoping that you'd see him again. Even if it was for the last time in your life.

You heard honking sounds. You heard voices of a woman scolding a boy who was crying his heart out for breaking her vase. You heard the sound of dog barking as a voice of a man kept telling the dog to shut up and that's he's going to buy it fresh meat if it behaves itself.

You opened you eyes again. You weren’t in the house anymore. As you were thinking how did you got out to the street, a sign caught your attention.

'KwangJoo'

You smiled.

He's here.

A glimpse of a tall guy, with brown hair drew standing across the street. He was wearing a white shirt underneath a black blazer. He left the upper part of the shirt unbutton as he kept looking at his left. You got a nice view of his perfect jawline.You chuckled at that thought as at the same time, you felt a tingling sensation in your stomach. You were happy. You had forgotten when the last time you felt this happy was, but looking at him again made you wanted to scream at the whole world that you have found your happiness again.

In his hands, laid a beautiful bouquet of white roses.

You tried to call him but no voice came. You tried waving your hands at him but he couldn’t see you. Just when You were about to go at him, a huge long truck passed and stop just right in front of him.

You freaked out. You couldn’t see him anymore. You told yourself that you don’t want to lose him again. You’ve had enough torture being parted from him for a long time. You are his. He was yours. Still yours. No one could take him away from. Even god couldn’t go against your sacred love. But that was what you thought.

The truck moved away but he was nowhere in your sight. You went across the street.

You went inside a coffee shop. Maybe he's taking a cup of hot coffee.

No. He’s not there.

You went into a clothing store. Maybe he's buying you new clothes for your anniversary.

No. He’s not there either.

You were thinking. The thought of giving him up lingered in your mind for a while. You palm was sweaty. You licked your dry lips and let the wind blew away your pain. But it didn’t go away.

At that time, all you wanted was to see his smiling face again. You bet you could do anything just to be in his arms again.

You dragged your heavy feet out of the store. As you lifted your head, you saw a very familiar back.

In the sea of human with all kind of look and character, he stood out. He was shining like an angel who just fell from heaven. As if everything around him was in black and white blurry images when he was just shimmering under the sun ray.

Broad shoulders. Long legs. Tall figure walking through the crowd. You couldn’t see his face. Not even his skin. But you knew it was him.

You are here.

A smile crept in the corner of you thin lips. Just when you were at the edge of breaking into tears, he came again in your sight.

You didn’t want to lose him again. Never ever again.

So, you decided to follow him.

You took the same steps as he did. You turned the way he was. You paused whenever he turned.

Left.

Right.

Right.

Left.

Right.

You have no idea where he was taking you. But you legs never felt tired, you eyes never felt bored boring a look at his back.

Even his back look so perfect.

30 minutes past.

The walk you made by following him took both of you to a beautiful grave-yard. There were many kind of flowers planted. For a moment you forgot that you were in a cemetery where dead people were buried.

He lost from you sight again.

But from afar, you spotted him again kneeling in front of a grave. He leaned the bouquet against the grave-stone and he was cleaning the small area from wild grass and trashes.

You walked nearer at him. The closer you got to him, the sobbing sound grew louder.

His body was shaking. You knew he was crying. You knew the sobbing voice belonged to him. All you wanted to do just to hug him from behind and kiss his ears. You just wanted to stop his tears because a drop of tears from his eyes fell on the ground, you heart felt as if you are slicing your own heart with a blunt knife.

But something holding you back. The writing on the grave-stone.

You felt yourself fading as you body felt light. You had no more tears to cry. No more voice to scream.

I love you.

Kim Jae Joong
1986-2007

I should be working on my fic now but sorry to people who read it coz the next update will be quite late coz i'm having a mood changes.T_T

that's how this one-shot came out.xD

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hehe.Suddenly,I felt like making NGs.Inspired by a write who always made NGs for her great fics.xD.You know who she is.xD

NG

Jae : *searching for Yunho inside a coffee shop*

Yunho : *talking to a sexy waitress*Hye,what's you name?

Jae : YAHHH!!!JUNG YUNHO!!!!!

PD : CUT!!!What Yunho was doing here?!?!

NG

Jae : I love you.

Yunho : .......

Jae : YAHH!!I SAID I LOVE YOU!!!!

Yunho : ZZZZzzz~

PD : CUT!!Wake him up!!!

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First Love Chapter 10

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 13:36:03 GMT

Title: First Love
Author: tsushio
Pairing: Jaeho/Yunjae,Yoosu
Length: chaptered
Genre: Romance/a bit humor
Rating: PG13
Summary: *coming soon*

for now : Kim JaeJoong regain his mind and memory.Young Jae love the change.What will happen next?Meanwhile, someone's building their own love castle.

warning : The chapters are usually very short.Mistakes already part of my writing style.xDD.Sorry about that.The change in pov will be very obvious,be alert.Coz i dont feel like writing 'jaejoong's pov' in every change,it sounded boring and xD,unless it is other person than jaejoong.I'm a noob in writing.Sorry if my story is not good.

KIM JAEJOONG ~~TO DO~~ MUST DO LIST

1. Teach Young Jae a lesson (for trying to kill me)
2. Make Sang Choo pay all the debts (checked the account book, he got lot more to pay)
3. Retire
4. Set the team free
5. Propose Yunho.

Hurm.The last thing have to wait.

Its 9.00 p.m. and Young Jae already went home with my parents. In this room there's only me and Yunho who kept playing with the flower that Junsu bought before I threw him the vase. The nurse brought a new vase and put the flowers in it. She asked what happened with the old one. ~~My life quote~~One of my lives quote is never leave evidence after committing a crime.Muahahha.

I said I don’t know. At first she doubted (by the way she looked at me) but then I pretend that the room was hot (its freaking cold there!!) and began unbuttoning the hospital cloth I wore. She turned red and left immideatly.xD

Hurm.What should I add in the list?

Yup.This is a MUST.

~~5.Propose Yunho~~
5. Find Junsu a girlfriend.

He seriously needs one.

"Jae Joong ah~"

I looked up from the small paper in my palm to Yunho.

He's still playing with the flowers.

"What's wrong, Yunho?"

"Are you ignoring me?"

He shifted his attention from the flower to the pen in my hand.

Why the heck I think that's cute?

"If you’re talking about what happened earlier, I’m sorry. I was just...”

"Shush~"

His index finger pressing my lips. Our eyes met and my heart began thumping like crazy.

Shit.Stop it, stupid blood-pumping thingy.

"Boojae~"

That's the name I didn’t hear for years. The last time he called me that was on his 13th birthday when he wanted me to kiss him on the cheek as a birthday present.Wth.That was so immature for a growing boy.

He traced the edge of my lips with his thumbs and from the chair; he moved to sit on the bed beside me. The pen fell on the floor and the clicking sound echoed inside of the dim room.

My legs shook when he placed his other hand on my lap, and we were barely 10 cm apart.

"You're so red."

I....what?!?! Red!?!?

Red = blushing

Damn it. I should beg the doctor to cut my heart instead if my head.

I brought my hands to his waist and slowly caressing his firm chest.

Wait. I didn’t do that!!!But that's my hands!!!

I tell you, my hands moved themselves!!!

"Boo...do you like me?"

Fuck.I don’t like you.

I love you, stupid.But you never see that that.

"No."

It’s not the right time. I don’t want to hurt you.

"Then why are boring a hole on my chest?"

*Blushed harder*

O_O

I just realized. I’ve been rubbing his chest and staring at the almost visible nipples through the white shirt for ~~quite~~ a long time.

"I....I...."

Shit.He caught me.

"I was wondering...I can’t see you heart. I don’t know what's beneath this white shirt."

Kim Jae Joong, you should say something better than this. You are thinking with your little 'Jae Joong' down there instead of you brain. =.=""

"Then...do you want to see what's under this shirt?"

No. Wait.

This sounded so wrong in many different ways.

Stupid Kim JaeJoong.You should've said something 'nice shirt' or 'where did you buy this shirt'.

Say no. Say no. Must say no. NO.

"Can I?"

+.+""

I give up.

Yunho began unbuttoning his white shirt.

1st button.

2nd button.

3rd button.

Heck.He's too damn slow.

I'll help him.

"Jae Joong ah~what...what...are you doing?"

4th button
5th button

ARggg.Better rips it off!!!

"You're too slow! I’m 'curious'."

I looked at his face and saw one corner of his lips went higher than the other.

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30 minutes later

Yunho was sleeping on the small couch near the window. With the hospital's clothes on.

Why? Because I took his clothes off (he's a deep sleeper.xD) while he's sleeping and put on the one on me. I didn’t take off his boxer because he might get up and jump on me thinking that I wanted to rape him.

Me? I’m getting ready to take off from this hospital.Yeah.I'm running away.

The doctor said I can only get out after 2 weeks.

One more day here, I’m going to jump off the building.

Oh.What happened 30 minutes ago? Lets just say nothing NC17 happened because I freaked out after looking at his bare chest(the sexy nipples and killing moobs.X_X) and ran into the bathroom to 'relief' myself. Sorry about that.What I mean 'relief' is NOT what you're thinking. I puked.T_T

By the time I got out, he’s already sleeping on the couch.

Pause

YAh!!Tsushio!!Why did you make me puke?!?!I'm a man. And I'm top!!

Me: stop complaining! Remember I can kill you anytime I want so shut up!!

Geez.Are you pms-ing?

Play

I took his money and left him sleeping soundly in the room.

Goodbye, Jung Yunho.

Home!!!Babeh~I'm coming home!!!!

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*Home*

I'm home. Finally.

The money I ~~stole~~ took from Yunho's wallet just enough to pay for the taxi fare.Yunho's shirt was kind of big and the taxi driver almost mistaken me as a teenage girl running away from her abusive boyfriend.Wth.

The awkward conversation went like this.

"Ah.Young lady. Where are you going?"

He eyed me from the mirror and for some reasons; I had a weird feeling about this guy.

I told him the address and in the whole ride he kept talking and that made me feel like choking him to death with the seat belt.

"You know. A young girl like you should obey your parents and never ever run away from home just because they hate your boyfriend."

Wtf.

"Ahjusshi, first, I’m not a girl. Second, I did NOT run away from my home."

He sighed. A very heavy sigh.Oh Jesus. I have a very bad feeling about this.

"You know? I also have a daughter so I know it. You don’t have to deny it because I could see in your eyes."

Man.What's wrong with this guy? How can he see my eyes in this dark taxi?!?! I couldn’t even see my own reflection and he's telling me he could see it in my eyes.

Besides, its not that his daughter looked like me.

Or does she?

"I know. You ran away from you parents to be with your boyfriend, right?"

Heck.My parents know Yunho.

Wait. He’s NOT my boyfriend!!!!

"Then, you’re running away from your boyfriend because he raped you everyday and forced you to sleep with his friend, right?"

I think this ahjusshi watched too many western movies.

"Ahjusshi.I'm not a girl!!!My boyfriend is NOT abusive!!!I didn’t even sleep with him yet!!!!"

"I know."

O_o

What did you know?

"Life isn’t easy, little girl."

=.="

"When I was young, I dated my wife. Her parents really hate me and were against our relationship. Once her father said 'I rather have my daughter to sleep with 100 hobos than marrying you .It hurt my pride and my girlfriend couldn’t do anything because he's her father."

That's how he started to tell the story of his life. I was right about the weird feeling I had on this taxi driver earlier. =.=""

I don’t feel like listening to him but I did eventually when he started to sob uncontrollably.

I arrived safely and the ahjusshi end his story when his girlfriend's fathers paid some killer to hunt them.

I asked him did they have married. He said

"Yes. We did. But she died last year on a car accident."

I felt sorry for him. Such a strong love, even after going through so many obstacles they managed to get together but finally have to part again.

But he still thought I'm a girl. =.="

Yes. Home!!!!!

PRANGGGGG

Huh? What’s that? Thief??

And where the heck is Junsu!??!He left the door unlocked!!

I thought I saw a huge shadow in the kitchen. Very huge.

"MMmmnnghhh~~"

Huh? What sound is that??!?!

Kim JaeJoong.Hide yourself.

I saw the couch. And weird balloon-looked-like thingy on the table. What was that?

"MMGhHHGGGGG~~~~AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"

Behind the couch.

I rolled over on the freakishly (is this word even exist?) cold floor, jumped over the table after grabbing the strange packet and swam towards the couch.

"Chunnie ah~~"

Chunnie??Who's that??

"Stop Park Yoochun~NGhh~~"

Wait. Why does that voice sounded like Junsu?

Don’t tell me that 'Park Yoochun' is the same Micky Yoochun who held the record for screwing the most girls at school.

"Micky ah~~~I'm going to come.NGh~~Take it out."

"No, Kim Junsu.Come in me."

"NO, MICKY!!"

"Yes."

"NOW!!~"

I knocked my head against the back of the couch numerous of times at the sounds.

They are making love in my sacred kitchen!!!!!kljgscyjbfhd

Wait. Almost forgot about the thing I took from the table.

I accidentally took a piece of paper along with the

"Chunnie, where did you put the condom?"

"On the table, but hunny~~we don’t need it~~"

"NGHHhhh~~"

=.="""""

It’s a condom.

There's writing on the paper.

It says

"Junsu, me and you dad are going to a temple at your granny's old house. I’m not going to come home until the end if this week. Take care of your brother and never let a boy name Park Yoochun enter the house.

P/s: Don’t do anything with that boy. I’m praying for your sexuality safety. Please don’t let my praying go to the waste.

Love,
Umma."

Too late,umma.

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hurmm....my emotions....still very unstable.Everytime I type something,automatically I feel like crying and screaming.T_T

I dont think its becoz of hormone,coz my 'time of the month' ended 2 days ago.T_T

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Behind the scene

[What you hear~]

"MMmmnnghhh~~"

"MMGhHHGGGGG~~~~AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"

"Chunnie ah~~"

"Stop Park Yoochun~NGhh~~"

[The truth...]

Junsu : MMmmnnghhh...So delicous, where did you bought these?

Yoochun : Near the hospital.The ahjumma said these are the best sweet potatoes in Seoul.

Junsu : MMGhHHGGGGG~~~~AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!.

Yoochun : What's wrong?

Junsu :Chunnie ah~~ I burned my tongue!

JaeJoong : Wait.*suddenly jumped onto the couch*.The smell is too tempting.....*sniffsniff*

PD : cut! Stop eating and give me those!!

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Anyband - Day Dream.mp3
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Big Bang - big boy.mp3
Big Bang - dirty cash.mp3
Big Bang - lalala.mp3
Big Bang - lies.mp3
Big Bang - nunmul punin babo.mp3
Big Bang - this love(G-Dragon Solo).mp3
Boa - LOVE LETTER.mp3
Boa - Reflection (Korean Pop Version).mp3
Brown Eyed Girls - Ready To L.O.V.E.mp3

Chae Yeon - Two of us.mp3
CSJH - My Everything(RIP).MP3
CSJH feat Jaejoong - Just For One Day.mp3
CSJH feat Kyuhyun-Just For One Day.mp3

DBSK - ''O'' JAPANESE.mp3
DBSK - 'O'.mp3
DBSK - I Wish (Instrumental).mp3
DBSK - Magic Castle.mp3
DBSK - miduhyo.mp3
DBSK - Million Men.mp3
DBSK - Miss You.mp3
DBSK - my destiny.mp3
DBSK - My Little Princess.mp3
DBSK - One (Korean).mp3
DBSK - ONE(japan).mp3
DBSK - phantom.mp3
DBSK - PROMISE.mp3
DBSK - Purple Line(korean version).mp3
DBSK - Rainbow.mp3
DBSK - Remember.mp3
DBSK - ride on.mp3

DBSK - Rising Sun (Japanese).mp3
DBSK - Saranghamnida.mp3
DBSK - sky.mp3
DBSK & Super Junior - Show me Your Love.mp3
DBSK - SOMEBODY TO LOVE.mp3
DBSK - Song for you.mp3
DBSK - STAY WITH ME TONIGHT.mp3
DBSK - step by step.mp3
DBSK - Summer Dream.mp3
DBSK - Thanx To.mp3
DBSK - The Way U Are.mp3
DBSK - Through The Forest.mp3
DBSK - Together.mp3
DBSK - triangle.wma
DBSK - Unforgettable.mp3
DBSK - whatever they say(accapella).mp3
DBSK - Whatever they say.mp3
DBSK - White Lies (Full ver.) composed by Xiah Junsu.mp3
DBSK - You only love.mp3
DBSK - zion.mp3

Epik High - Fan.mp3
Eru - Black glasses.mp3
Eru - Wintering(RIP).MP3

F.T Island - because i dont know hot to love(saranghal babeul mollaso).mp3
F.T Island - Cheerful Sensibilty.mp3
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F.T Island - Cheon Doong.mp3
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F.T Island - I'm happy(haengbok hamnida).mp3
F.T Island - Its is love.mp3
F.T Island - Namja eui chod sarameun......mp3
F.T Island - Only one person.mp3
F.T Island - Sarang ahlee -- love hurts.mp3
F.T Island - They told us to stop(hajimallaeyo).mp3
F.T Island- The person who is closer to tears.mp3
F.T Island- Until you return.mp3
FT Island - One Word.mp3
FTTS - A Song For Love.mp3
FTTS - blood(pi).mp3
FTTS - Forever.mp3
FTTS - goodbye.mp3
FTTS - Gravity.mp3
FTTS - Missing You.mp3
FTTS - my_angel(RIP).MP3
FTTS - sea of love.mp3
FTTS - Transition.mp3

G.O.D - change.mp3

H.O.T - Candy.mp3
Haha - jump.mp3
Hong Kyung Min - Sorry.mp3
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Hyori lee - 10 minutes.mp3
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Jaejoong - Crying.mp3
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Jaejoong - Incomplete.mp3
Jaejoong - insa.mp3
Jaejoong - Just for one day -acapella.mp3
Jaejoong - Maze.mp3
Jun Jin - Loving that pain.mp3
Jun Jin-Love Doesnt Come.mp3
Junjin - Love Doesnt Come - Track02.mp3

Kangta - Persona.mp3
Kim Dong Ryul- Like a Child (Ft Alex).mp3
Kim Dong Wan - My Love (Feat.Eric).mp3
Kim Dong Wan - Scream (Feat.D.Bace,Dj Tukutz Of Epik High).mp3
Kim Dong Wook - 가지마.mp3
Kim Jong Wook - Only You.mp3
Kim Jung Hoon - SAD SONG.mp3
Kim Jung Hoon - sirius.mp3
KRY - the night chicago died.mp3
KRY - the one i love.mp3
KRY.wma

Lee Jung - I only see you.mp3
Lee Jung Hyun - Mi Chuh.mp3
Lee Seung Gi - Let's Go On A Vacation.mp3
Lee Seung Gi - Mannam.mp3

M - bump.mp3
M - Explore M.mp3
M - Last First Kiss.mp3
Max Changmin - I Love You(fancam rip).mp3
Max Changmin - When I First Kissed You(fancam rip).mp3
Max Changmin - Wild Soul(fancam rip).mp3
Memories - Xiah Junsu(perf. rip).mp3
Micky Yoochun - How Deep is Your Love (Happy Sunday Heroine120306).mp3
Micky Yoochun - My Girlfriend(fancam rip).mp3
Micky Yoochun - One Last Cry(fancam rip).mp3
Micky Yoochun - She (Original by Elvis)(perf. rip).mp3
Moon Hee Jun - Obsession.mp3

OST 200 pounds beauty - Byul(Kim Ah Joong).mp3
OST 200 pounds beauty - Maria(Kim Ah Joong).mp3
OST 200 pounds beauty - Dance with my daddy(Clazziquai).mp3
OST Green Rose - neomu saranghaneunde.mp3
OST Gumiho(Wanted).mp3
OST Lovers In Paris - can i love u(yurisangja).mp3
OST Princess hour - Perhaps Love (sarang in ga yo) - HowL & J.mp3
OST The snow queen - First Snow.mp3
OST Unforgettable Mariage(KBS Sitcom)(Honki F.T Island & Seeya).mp3
OST Witch Yoo Hee - if(Jeon Hye Bin).mp3
OST Witch yoo hee - day by day.Mp3
OST Witch yoo hee - destiny.Mp3
OST Witch yoo hee - Fates game(haha feat mc jinri).mp3
OST Witch yoo hee - what i want to say is....Mp3

Park Hyo Shin - Memories resembles love.wmv
Park Ji Yoon - Adult Ceremony.mp3

Rain - him and me(feat. dynamic duo).mp3
Rain - I'm Coming(feat Tablo).mp3
Rain - Instead of Saying Goodbye.mp3
Rain - Its raining.mp3
Rain - Sad Tango.mp3

Se7en - believe.mp3
Se7en - Can you feel me.mp3
Se7en - Crazy.wma
Se7en - girlfriend.mp3
Shin Hyesung & Lee ji hoon - doll.mp3
Shin Hyesung & Lyn - love...after.mp3
Shin Hyesung & M - ocean blue.mp3
Shin Hyesung - Dont leave.mp3
Shin Hyesung - i luv u.mp3
Shin Hyesung - mirror.mp3
Shin Hyesung - Now and Forever.mp3
Shin Hyesung - Same thought.mp3
Shin Hyesung - the beginning.mp3
Shinhwa - angel.mp3
Shinhwa - as long as u love me.mp3
Shinhwa - Brand New.mp3
shinhwa - crazy.mp3
Shinhwa - Day after day.mp3
Shinhwa - Deep Sorrow.mp3
Shinhwa - Hero.mp3
Shinhwa - How Do I say(R.I.P).MP3
Shinhwa - I swear.mp3
Shinhwa - my everything.mp3
Shinhwa - perfect man.mp3
shinhwa - shooting star.mp3
Shinhwa - Soul mate.mp3
Shinhwa - The Days.mp3
Shinhwa - Throw my fist.mp3
Shinhwa - Weak Man~Kimi wo Nakushite.mp3
Shinhwa - wedding.mp3
Shinhwa - When That Day Comes-super rookie ost.MP3
Shinhwa - Wild eyes.mp3
SM Town - Leave For Vacation.mp3
SM Town - Snow Dream.mp3
SS501 - 널 부르는 노래.mp3
Super Junior - Endless moment.mp3
Super Junior - Happiness.mp3
Super Junior - HIT.mp3
Super Junior - I'm Your Man.mp3
Super Junior - Smile.mp3
Super Junior - So I.mp3
Super Junior - Success(HIT Ost).mp3

The TRAX - Paradox.mp3
Turbo - black cat.mp3
Turbo - Love is.mp3

U-Know Yunho - I Do (Original by One).mp3

Wonder Girls - Tell me.mp3

Xiah Junsu & Boa - A whole new world.mp3
Xiah Junsu & Jang Ri In - Timeless.mp3
Xiah Junsu - beautiful thing.mp3
Xiah Junsu - How To Avoid The Sun (Original by Rain).mp3
Xiah Junsu - In Hyung(R.I.P from audition).MP3
Xiah junsu - Lately.mp3
Xiah Junsu - Loving that pain(rip).MP3
Xiah Junsu - My Page.mp3
Xiah Junsu - na hansang guederuh.mp3
Xiah Junsu - Rainy Night.mp3
Xiah Junsu - Resignation.mp3
Xiah Junsu(rip 'uninvited guest').MP3

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big bang 'for the world' english album

01 VIP-Intro.mp3
02 Bigbang.mp3
03 How Gee.mp3
04 Lie.mp3
05 So Beautiful.mp3
06 La La La.mp3
07 Together Forever.mp3
08 Always.mp3

Big Bang 'hot issue'

01 VIP-Intro.mp3
02 Bigbang.mp3
03 How Gee.mp3
04 Lie.mp3
05 So Beautiful.mp3
06 La La La.mp3
07 Together Forever.mp3
08 Always.mp3

big bang 'with you'

01 VIP-Intro.mp3
02 Bigbang.mp3
03 How Gee.mp3
04 Lie.mp3
05 So Beautiful.mp3
06 La La La.mp3
07 Together Forever.mp3
08 Always.mp3

dbsk 'beutiful you'

01 Beautiful you.mp3
02 Sennen Koi Uta.MP3
03 Sennen Koi Uta (Korean Version).MP3
04 Sennen Koi Uta (Japanese Karaoke).MP3
05 Sennen Koi Uta (Korean Karaoke).MP3
06 Beautiful you (Less Vocal).MP3
07 Sennen Koi Uta (Less Vocal).MP3

dbsk 'T' disc 1

01 TRICK.MP3
02 NO.MP3
03 Purple Line.MP3
04 Forever Love.MP3
05 Summer Dream.MP3
06 Ride on.MP3
07 DARKNESS EYES.MP3
08 Lovin' you.MP3
09 Rainbow.MP3
10 SHINE.MP3
11 LAST ANGEL (Tohoshinki Version).MP3
12 CLAP!.MP3
13 Love in the Ice.MP3
14 Forever Love (A cappella Version).MP3
15 Lovin' you - Haru's Deep Watermix.MP3
16 Together.MP3

dbsk 'T' disc 2

01 - Song for you.mp3
02 - Day Moon ~Harudal~.mp3
03 - Beautiful Life.mp3
04 - You're my miracle.mp3
05 - Kiss Shita Mama, Sayonara.mp3

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02 Voyage.mp3
03 Dashi han beonman.mp3
04 Free Style #1.mp3
05 RUN.mp3
06 2 Ma Luv....mp3
07 We Can Get In On.mp3
08 SO IN LOVE.mp3
09 Gieongnani.mp3
10 Ajing motdahan iyagi.mp3

Shinee

01 누난 너무 예뻐 (Replay)(Noona you're so pretty).mp3
02 In my room.mp3
03 Real.mp3
04 사.계.한 (Love should go on).mp3
05 누난 너무 예뻐 (Replay_Boom Track).mp3

Epik High 'Pieces' Part 1

01- be.mp3
02- Breakdown.mp3
03- (short piece).mp3
04 ft ji sun of loveholic- one.mp3
05 ft Kebee- .mp3
06 ft Jinbo- Girl.mp3
07- Slave (Short Piece).mp3
08 ft Yankie- The Future.mp3
09 ft DJ Friz- 20 Fingers (Short Piece).mp3
10 ft Na Yoon Kwon- Ignition.mp3
11 ft Dynamic Duo, Dok2, Double K, and TBNY- Eight By Eight.mp3
12 decalcomanie.mp3
13 icarus walks (short piece).mp3
14- Falling Flower.mp3
15 ft yoon ha- umbrella.mp3
16 ft ji sun of loveholic-.mp3
17- Breakdown (Supreme Mix).mp3
18- One (Planet Shiver Remix).mp3

DBSK 'Purple Line' Single

01 Purple Line.mp3
02 DEAD END -STY Gin n' Tonic mix-.mp3
03 ZION -Zero G Remix-.mp3
04 Purple Line (Less Vocal).mp3
05 DEAD END -STY Gin n' Tonic mix- (Less Vocal).mp3

SM TOWN Winter Album 2007

01 ONLY LOVE - SM TOWN.mp3
02 On DECEMBER 27th - BoA.mp3
03 Evergreen - TVXQ.mp3
04 First Snow - Super Junior.mp3
05 We Wish You A Merry Christmas & Feliz Navidad - TSZX.mp3
06 Winter Wonderland - Kangta.mp3
07 Love Melody - Girls’ Generation.mp3
08 Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas - Hyun Jin.mp3
09 When snow scatters - Choo Ka Yul.mp3
10 Oh Holy Night - Zhang Liyin.mp3
11 Christmas of Childhood - Song Kwang Shik.mp3
12 [Bonus Track] (TRAVELING) - TVXQ.mp3

Super Junior H

01 Cooking!Cooking!.mp3
02 Pajama Party.mp3
03 You and I.mp3
04 Sunny.mp3
05 Good Luck.mp3

DBSK 'Keyword' Japanese Single

01 Keyword.mp3
03 Keyword (Less Vocal).mp3
04 Maze (Less Vocal).mp3

DBSK 'Crazy Life' Japanese single

01.Close to you.mp3
02.Crazy Life.mp3
03.Close to you (Less Vocal).mp3
04.Crazy Life (Less Vocal).mp3

DBSK 'If' Japanese Single

02 Rainy Night (JUNSU from TOHOSHINKI).mp3
03 If... (Less Vocal).mp3
04 Rainy Night (JUNSU from TOHOSHINKI) (Less Vocal).mp3

Sung Shi Kyung Vol.6

01 여기 내 맘속에.mp3
02 어디에도.mp3
03 더 아름다워져.mp3
04 안녕 나의 사랑.mp3
05 잃어버린 것들.mp3
06 그대와 춤을.mp3
07 Baby You Are Beautiful.mp3
08 눈부신 고백.mp3
09 사랑하는 일.mp3
10 소풍.mp3
11 당신은 참.....mp3

^this album I recommend for the ballad lovers.I admit that slow ballad hardly appeal to my ears.But Sung Shi Kyung is one of my fav. korean ballad singer and I could say that I'm in love with the songs.Track 10 is very beautiful(although I dont understand what he sang.xD) with the piano sounds.Track 1 does not really..hurmm..suits my ears..but if you listen to other tracks,you'll have the I'm-in-love feeling growing in you.xD.Well,that's what I think.Its differents for every people.xD

Super Junior 2nd Album

01 Dont Don.mp3
02 Sapphire Blue.mp3
03 Youre my endless love.mp3
04 Hate You Love You.mp3
05 Disco Drive.mp3
06 Marry You.mp3
07 I Am.mp3
08 She's Gone.mp3
09 MIssing You.mp3
10 Mirror.mp3
11 Our Love.mp3
12 Midnight Fantasy.mp3
13 Thank You.mp3
14 Song For You.mp3

Shinhwa Winter Story 2007 Single

01 Game
02 I'll Never Let You Go
03 눈 오는 날 (The Snowy Night)

Kim Dong Wan 'Secret'

01 남자의 사랑 (Man_s Love).mp3
02 비밀 (Secret) (Narration SNSD Tffan.mp3
03 왜 그래 (What_s Wrong) (Feat. Herita.mp3
04 Honey (Feat. Eric).mp3
05 사랑하는 사람아 (Person You Love).mp3
06 바람의 노래 (Wind_s Love).mp3
07 사이키스 (Kiss Between Us).mp3
08 떠나도 돼 (You Can Leave).mp3
09 악녀탈출 (Witch_s Escape).mp3
10 좋을사람 (Good Person).mp3
11 잊어야겠다 (I Need to Forget).mp3
12 You Don't Know Me (Duet with Jade.mp3
13 비밀 (Instrumental).mp3
14 왜그래 (Instrumental).mp3

BIG BANG - STAND UP

01 - INTRO.mp3
02 - Day After Day.mp3
03 - Heaven.mp3
04 - That's A Good Person.mp3
05 - Lady.mp3
06 - Oh My friend.mp3

TOHOSHINKI - 'Doushite kimiwo sukini natte shimattandarou' single

01 - どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？.mp3
02 - Box in the ship.mp3
03 - どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？ (アカペラver.).mp3
04 - どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？ (Less Vocal).mp3
05 - Box in the ship (Less Vocal).mp3

DBSK - 'MIROTIC' 4th Vol.

01 Jumun (MIROTIC).mp3
02 Wrong Number.mp3
03 Noeur..Baraboda.mp3
04 CRAZY LOVE.mp3
05 HEY! (Don't bring me down).mp3
06 Neon naui norae.mp3
07 Mujigae.mp3
08 Nagwon.mp3
09 Aknyeo (Are you A Good girl).mp3
10 Flower Lady.mp3
11 Ithyeojingyejeol.mp3
12 Love in the Ice (Korean Version).mp3

MIROTIC C

I think other tracks are the same but with addition of 4 new songs.

02 Saranga ooljima.mp3
06 Soweon.mp3
10 Sarang annyeong sarang.mp3
14 Don't Say Goodbye.mp3

JAy Chou "Capricorn"

01 魔杰座 (Mo Jie Zuo; Capricorn).mp3
02 女兒紅 (Nu Er Hong; Lady in Red).mp3
03 東方之殿 (Dong Fong Zhi Dian; Palace of the Oriental).mp3
04 紅樓夢中 (Hong Lou Meng Zhong; In Midst of Red Mansion Dream).mp3
05 失戀的青蛙 (Shi Lian De Qing Wa; Lovelorn Frog).mp3
06 失落非主流 (Shi Luo Fei Zhu Liu; Depressed Mainstream).mp3
07 從新愛從新愛 (Cong Xin Ai; In A New Love).mp3
08 大灌藍 (Da Guan Lan; Filled with Blue).mp3
09 達芬奇的畫布 (Da Fen Qi De Hua Bu; Leonardo Da Vinci's Canvas).mp3
10 小丑 (Xiao Chou; Joker).mp3 11 稻香 (Dao Xiang; Rice Fragrance).mp3

^ Doode!I love this album a lot!!!The tracks are variety.There's ballad,and catchy songs that make wanted him to make a concert for this album only.xD.He is definitely a great composer and singer.Love this guy a lot.^^

TEI - LATEST ALBUM WHICH I FORGOT THE TITLE.t_t

01 - Intro.mp3
02 - SarangEun...HyangKiReul NamKiGo.mp3
03 - DalmEun SaRam.mp3
04 - HeeSang.mp3
05 - Why.mp3
06 - Another Love.mp3
07 - Falling in Love.mp3
08 - JibChak.mp3
09 - DanNyeom.mp3
10 - DaShin NoonMoolEe....mp3
11 - KeoWool.mp3
12 - SarangEe ByulHaNi.mp3
13 - SoNeoWa KaRoDeung.mp3

First Love Chapter 9

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:45:45 GMT

Title: First Love
Author: tsushio
Pairing: Jaeho/Yunjae,Yoosu
Length: chaptered
Genre: Romance/a bit humor
Rating: PG13
Summary: *coming soon*

for now : Kim JaeJoong regain his mind and memory.Yunho hate JaeJoong.But Young Jae love the change.What will happen next?Meanwhile, someone's building their own love castle.

warning : The chapters are usually very short.Mistakes already part of my writing style.xDD.Sorry about that.The change in pov will be very obvious,be alert.Coz i dont feel like writing 'jaejoong's pov' in every change,it sounded boring and xD,unless it is other person than jaejoong.I'm a noob in writing.Sorry if my story is not good or confusing.

You can find the rest of the chapter in my lj but only prologue and 1st 3 chapters are public.

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Chapter 9
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"THE GREATEST LOBE~~...OF ALL~~"

Fuck. What's that?!?!

What an ugly annoying squeaking dolphin noise is doing in my room in this freaking cold morning?!?!?

"IS EE-GEE TO ACHIBE~~"

Damn it. Not forget to mention very bad pronunciation too.

Need to stop this 'creature' before it goes louder.

I shut my eyes tightly and rolled my body to the left.

I flung my hands forward (with eye closed) and it met a hard wooden flat square surface. Must be a table.

I stretched it further and I could feel something tall, smooth, quite cold.....hurmm....what is this??

"LEARNING TO LOBE YOURSELF~~"

Urghh.Who cares!!!This creature must be stop before my head explode and pieces of my brain smeared all over the wall.

PHANNNNG.

Yeah.You are right.I threw the tall smooth thingy across the room. Where the sound came from.

Sound of glass shattered on the wall took over the loud squeaking noise.

I heard a loud gasp before the door slammed behind me.

Ahhh.Finally, a real sleep.

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"Umma!!Ap.....ap.....ap....paa~~!!"

Mrs. Kim looked at her older son with worried expression pasted on her face.Mr Kim came over to his wife and rubbed her back to calm her down.

Junsu on the other side looked horrified and heavy sweats pouring from his head like a waterfall.

"I was.....listening to my ipod..."

Yunho came and held Junsu's arms.

"Ahh....Yunho...hyung...hyung..."

The calm look on Yunho's face washed up. His eyebrows scrunched together and his grips on Junsu’s arms tighten.

"What's wrong with Jae Joong?"

"I.......I.....was listening to my Ipod....and. I was singing...”

"Junsu!!"

The four of them turned around in unison and saw Young Jae heading towards them with a bouquet of white lilies in his hand.

"Young Jae-shi."

He saw the worried looked on everybody faces (except for Junsu) and the lilies drop by his side.

"What's wrong??"

"I. was listening to my Ipod...and...I was singing. like...."

Junsu was about to sing the song again when Yoochun came out of nowhere and hugged Junsu from the back.

"Hey dear."

Junsu automatically turned around and buried his face on Yoochun's collar bone.

"Chunnie ahh...I was so scared. Do you know?"

Yoochun shook his head light while patting Junsu's head above his chin.

Without he knows it, other's faces slowly changing.

"What is it?”

Junsu looked up to Yoochun's face. Their lips slightly brushed.

Mrs. Kim grips tighten around her husband's neck.

"You know? I was in JaeJoong's hyung room listening to my Iodide you know what song?"

"No I don’t, Sunnie ahh.Tell me. What song?"

Young Jae's holding back Yunho's shoulders.

While Yunho's feet tapping furiously against the bouquet that landed on the floor earlier.

Once in a while, Young Jae could only glance over to take a good look at the used-to-be-beautiful flowers. He could barely see the petals anymore.

"Chunnie ah~~.Do you want me to sing for you??"

Yoochun took the other's face in his palm and pressed his forehead against his like how Song Seung Hoon did to Kim Tae Hee in Andre Kim's fashion show.

Junsu leaned closer while he hand his arms creeping up Yoochun's back. To be exact, under his shirt.

"Sunnie ah~~.Sing for me. Sing with you sex voice. Your voice is the sex to my ears."

Chunnie.*coughs*.I mean Yoochun replied in English with a soft low voice. His hands already moved from Junsu's chin to Junsu's another chin. (know which 'chin' I mean??)

"Uhnn~~.Chunnie ahh~~"

Mrs. Kim already kissing the floor while Mr. Kim kneeling facing the wall.

Young Jae was still trying to stop Yunho from jumping on the two love birds.

Rewind.

Pause.

Hurmm.It can be like that. Too dramatic.

Play.

"YAHH!!!JUNSU!!!"

A hard smack landed on the back of Junsu's head. He turned around and faced a tall tomato with stim coming out of his ears.

"WHAt~~?!?!?!Chunnie~~...he hit me~~it hurt~~"

"Where's is it honey? Let me blow the pain away."

"Awww.Chunnie~~"

"Eun.Sunnie ah~~"

"YOUNG JAE!!!LET ME GO BEFORE I KILL YOU!!!THEN I'LL KILL THEM!!!LET ME GO!!!"

Junsu turned around once again. His lips twitching and his left eyes went smaller than the other.

Yunho was lying on his stomach (on the floor) while Young Jae's legs wrapped around his waist, sitting on Yunho's butt.

"Geez.You doesn’t have to make out here. Find a room."

Young Jae looked up at Junsu.He eyed Junsu from his toes up to his blonde head.

"Pfttr.Look who's talking."

"Sunnie ah~~.Let's go."

Just when they were going to walk away from the awkward situation, Junsu suddenly remember something.

"Ahh.Yunho shi, I forgot to tell you that hyung woke up. And umma, I'm not coming home tonight. Let’s go, Chunnie ah~~"

In a flash, Young Jae and Yunho disappeared behind the door and Mr. Kim was holding his wife, just in case she went down on the floor again.

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*in the room*

"YAH!!WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!!?”

Young Jae had his neck pinned against the wall by Yunho's huge arms while his hands gripping a strand of Yunho's blue hair.

Aish.What I've done to receive this kind of nightmare?

First, a squeaking annoying voice.

Then I woke up and I saw ugly white ceiling with ugly white curtain and ugly white bed shit.

I hate white. If I've ever see anything white again today, I'll need to kill someone to get over it.

Now, my honeymoon with Song Hye Kyo was interrupted by noises of two stupid guys pulling each other's hair.

Both of them turned to look at me, with eyes popping out like they wanted to shoot me with their eyes.

"Sit before I make you."

Fuck.My head's hurt.

*30 minutes later*

"Jae Joong ah~"

That's Yunho.But I don’t need him now.

"Young Jae, what’s going on with our team?"

Lee Young Jae replied me, with his eyes still on the floor. What he got down there? I think my pretty face is better than his dirty shoes.

"They are doing fine. We kept importing stuffs from Japan and just made a new deal with a Thailand gang called Red Cheetah."

I got up from my bed and went to the window to open the curtain.Geez, I'm the sick person here and no one in this fucking room opened the damn window for me. I need air.

"JaeJoong~~"

"Good. Tell me about Sang Choo."

I heard something moving from my back. I turned around to see Young Jae standing facing the sitting Yunho.Yunho's back facing me and....wait??

Blue hair?!?!?! Since when he got blue hair?!?!

"He paid all the debts. And.....and....I think you know about his sister death."

How can I forget that? She died in front of my very own eyes. Poor girl.

"I know."

"JaeJoong hyung~~"

"Young Jae, I need to get out."

Yunho suddenly stood up. And the chair flew, hitting the wall.

Chi. What’s up with him? Is he pms-ing or something?

"Hyung, do you remember how.....you got attack?"

I can never forget.

I looked down on my feet. And realized that I'm not wearing shoes. No wonder the floor felt super cold.

Ewww.My toe nails grew uglier.WTF.

"I dont.The last image I saw was a dying girl in my arm."

He can’t know. I’ll tell him later but not now. I have things to do.

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Yunho POV

JaeJoong ignored me. He completely alienated me. How could he.

Young Jae just pretending like he's a so-called-loyal 'secretary' for JaeJoong.But I swear I could see an ugly smirk behind that stupid face.

In my butt.

When JaeJoong said he doesn’t remember about the attack, he looked too happy. If only JaeJoong didn’t concentrate on his feet.Urgh.

I feel like I'm going to explode now. That kimchi.No.

That rotten kimchi.I'll stuff you inside of a beggar mouth and you'll rot inside his stomach. Then I'll

"Ahh.Kim Jae Joong shi.You're awake. Can you please follow me to my office? I need to talk to you about your condition."

Good timing. (note the sarcasm)

JaeJoong walked past me. Once again ignoring me.T_T

He patted Young Jae's shoulders before the pulled the knob and walked out of the room.

Seemed like Young Jae managed to whisper something to JaeJoong.

But more like nibbling his ears to me.

After a while, he followed JaeJoong.But before he left he said something that made me feel like stuffing his throat with my shoes.

"You won. You DID. It’s my turn now."

He left me alone in the room.

"URGGGH!!!!!!YAHHH!!!ROTTEN KIMCHI!!!YOU CANT WIN! YOU’LL NEVER WIN!!YOU TRAITOR!!I'LL COOK YOU IN A PREASURE COOKER AND LET YOU ROT!!!IN MY BUTT!!I TELL YOU!!!IN MY BUTT!!!HAHAHAHHAHAHA"

"Shush!!"

An old lady (I think she's a nurse) peeked inside through the opened door with her index fingers pressing against her plastic lips.

"WHAT!!!"

She left after muttering how kids now days don’t have manners.

I'm going to have that rotten kimchi crushed under my smelly feet.

Jaeho little moment

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 08:42:13 GMT

A little moment I caught(with my unexpected jaeho eyes...xD) during the perfomance of Forever Love at the bigeast fan meeting.

awww...junsu and jaejoong singing together~~..how sweet~~

but someone back there was not in a good mood that day...kekekek..*evil laugh*..

the deathly glare~~as if he's saying

"You better get your eyes of my wifey."

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sorry...I never did an analysis...and I dont want to call this an analysis either...xDD

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a little old sweet moment during 'I believe' music video....

caps done by me
video credit as tagged

Saeng Ill Chuk ha hae~~

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 16:54:28 GMT

SAENG ILL CHUK HA HAMNIDA~
SAENG ILL CHUK HA HAMNIDA...
SARANGHA NEUN YOOCHUN OPPA~
SAENG ILL CHUK HA HAMNIDA~!!!

MIANHE OPPA~~I'M A BIT LATE COZ MY ~~STUPID UGLY STINKY~~ USED THE COMPUTER JUST WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKE 12.00 P.M.T_T

OPPA~~SAENG ILL CHUK HA HAE~~I HOPE YOU'LL HAVE A GREAT YEAR AND HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!STAY HEALTHY!~~

MOST IMPORTANT EAT WELL AND NEVER HURT YOURSELF JUST TO SATISFY US FANGIRLS...xDD

IT HURT ME MORE SEEING YOU IN PAIN....X_X

Yoochun oppa probably will never read this but just typing all this laready made me feeling relief and with hope he'll be safe and be happy no matter where he is now.

First Love 8

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 07:59:25 GMT

Title: First Love
Author: tsushio
Pairing: Jaeho/Yunjae
Length: chaptered
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG13
Summary: Something happened in the past that changed the Kim's family.What happened to JaeJoong?What changed him?

But someone's here to tell a story of his 1st and special love.[sorry for the summary...T_T]

warning : The chapters are usually very short.Mistakes already part of my writing style.xDD.Sorry about that.The change in pov will be very obvious,be alert.Coz i dont feel like writing 'jaejoong's pov' in every change,it sounded boring and xD,unless it is other person than jaejoong.I'm a noob in writing.Sorry if my story is not good or confusing.

kekeke...I think most of you already realized that JaeJoong behaviour sometimes sounded matured and not childish like he suppose to.Just wait and see.I think I'm going to end this story earlier that it should.xD

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Chapter 8
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"What are you doing here?"

Guess whose voice was that?

I hope it was mine. But Young Jae faster then me.

"Jae Joong.I'm taking you home."

Again. That voice supposes to be Yunho's.

But Young Jae beat him.

Young Jae held my wrist and ~~walk with me~~ walked me away from Yunho.Unlike the blue headed person, Young Jae is nicer.

"Kim Jae Joong.You are going home with me."

Yunho snatched my hand away from Young Jae's grip and pushed me towards his motorbike. Not forget to mention. In a harsh way. I almost kiss the handle of the bike.T_T

I turned to look at them and Yunho was glaring at Young Jae but Young Jae was looking at me. I sent him the please-save-me look. He looked sad. I could sense the loneliness in his eyes.

"Get on."

Yunho already on the bike, not removing his eyes from Young Jae's tall figure.I hope Young Jae will take me away from Yunho.I don’t like Yunho.

I love Yunho.

Wait. Whose voice was that? No.Not me. I don’t love Yunho.

I love Jung Yunho

"No I don’t."

"Yah.What's wrong? What’s up with that 'I don’t'?"

Yunho's voice snapped my mind to the reality again. I’m hearing voices. Again.

I just stared at him blankly and blinked my eyes like numerous of times.

"Are you having eyes infection? Hop on."

I suddenly forgot about Young Jae and get on the bike. I wrapped my arms around his small waist and laid behind his back, sniffing the scent of vanilla on his white shirt. For some unknown reasons, the scent kept me calm and I TOTALLY forgot about the weird voices in my head.

I forgot about Young Jae.

Slowly, I felt myself drifting into another world.

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10 years ago

"Yah!!Jung Yunho!!Catch this."

Jae Joong threw a blue shiny ball at the younger boy.

Pukkkk.

But he missed. The ball hit his head instead of landing safely in his open arms.

Jae Joong ran to him with all of his might mumbling

"You can’t hurt. You can’t bleed."

Yunho already fell on the ground, holding to his head with crunchy face. Tears swelling in his eyes and he felt as if the whole world was spinning around him. He can’t see anything. All he could hear just a sweet voice calling for his name.

"Yunho.Yunho.Are....you....okay?"

He held the fragile figure in his arms and placed his head carefully on his lap. Dam of tears busted, streaming down his pink cheeks. Between sobs, he panted and tried to catch a breathe. His chest heaved heavily. In his eyes, there's only him. He could do anything just to be in his place. For him, the pain of dying is nothing compared to the pain he felt looking at the one he love hurting.

Yunho saw that.Yunho saw the look in his eyes.Yunho saw how his lips trembled in fear.Yunho heard how his heart thumping crazily.

Yunho saw the sea of tears pouring from his beautiful eyes.

"Hyung."

The voice from his love one made his heart skipped faster. Without realizing it, more tears dripping from his eyes.Yunho knew it. He knew that the crying kid in front of him is keeping a huge secret from him. The way he talked. The way he stared. The way he laughed.

He knew the secret.

Yunho lifted his heavy head from the other's lap and leaned closer to his wet face. In a split second, he placed his lips on JaeJoong's and the other's eyes shot opened.Yunho tasted the salt in JaeJoong tears. But he knew, he could never forget the taste of JaeJoong inside of him.

JaeJoong stared blankly on the sky. He darted his eye balls down on Yunho's face and with no warning, Yunho deepen the kiss. He felt a current shock running in his body. His body stiffens.

He laid his eyes lids, and kissed the younger boy back.

Yunho pulled back and stared at the pair of dreamy before him. Covering his overwhelmed happiness caused by the kiss, he chuckled nervously and scratched the back of his head and said

"Hahaha.If I didn’t kiss you, you are not going to stop crying.Hahaha."

The older boy just blushed and laughers filled the sky above them.

JaeJoong went back home that evening. With butterflies in his tummy, celebrating the happiest moment he had in the park with the person he love.

At the same night, he ran up the door, closed the stairs, said his pajamas, and put on his prayers, turned off the bed, and hopped into the light. All because he kissed him today.

His first kiss.

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Bammmm.

That's the sound of my head colliding with his.

Thank god he's not wearing a helmet. Or I could have lost my memories and become nuts.

"Jung Yunho."

A voice. A very familiar voice. I peeked through Yunho's blue head and saw him again. The same face with acne and fats.

Park Sang Choo.

He looked furious.

Yunho already got off the bike, leaving me dumbfounded. Still sitting on the bike.

Maybe I should get off too.

"I know."

Sang Choo added.

Yunho looked a bit confused and had been playing with the back of his head for a few moments by now. I wondered too. What’s that he knows?

"You killed my sister."

Yunho stopped ruffling his hair and stared at Sang Choo blankly.

I got the shock too.Yunho is a killer?

"You tried to kill JaeJoong too."

Wait. He tried to kill me? Why??

Yunho turned to look at me and he's sending the don’t-trust-him look.

The pain in my head came back. I felt as if my heart is pumping the blood straight to my head instead of to my whole body.

Why he wanted to kill me? Why he killed Sang Choo's sister?

Urgh.My head hurt like hell.

"Who told you??"

Yunho gave Sang Choo a deathly glare. Beyond the darkness in the empty street, I could sense movement coming from every corner. I caught few glimpse of living creatures as more words came from Sang Choo's smelly mouth.

"You are going to pay for this. With your own blood."

In a flash, a lot of men in black came dashing towards us.

Yunho tried to dodge all the punches and kicked sent by the men.

He manages to fling one guy over his shoulder and gave a hard kick right on his shin. Just before he was about to punch the half-dead person on the ground, another man came and hit his back with a metal bat.Yunho's face scrunched in pain. He turned around and punched the person's forehead. He grabbed the metal bat and swung it around him as more men came surrounding him. He looked tired and lifeless. His body was shaking.

He looked at him with his red eyes. I saw blood coming from his forehead. But despite of the streaming blood and thousands of punches and kicks, he smiled at me. As if he's giving me an assurance that he's going to get me home safely without a scratch.

I felt a tugged in my heart.

Without me knowing it, I ran to him.

I pushed all the smelly men around him and managed to hit them.

I heard his voice screaming for my name. But I was too 'busy' dodging the attacks. I saw him running to me.

BAMMMMMMMMMMM.

My vision bluring.My head hurts and I felt a warm liquid trickling from my head, down to my lips.

I let my tongue out just to have a taste of iron in my mouth.

BAMMMMMM.

PAKKKKK.

PUKKKKK.

I could hear his voice. But I couldn’t respond. I really wanted to run to him and hugged him tightly but I just couldn’t.

I couldn’t see anything.

"JAEJOONG AHHHHH~~~~~"

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*phone call*

"Park Sang Choo."

"Lee Young Jae.Thank you for your information."

"What have you done to him?"

"It’s none of your business."

"I mean JaeJoong.Did you hurt him??"

"Arrr.Err.He's......"

"I've told you not to touch him. Every single blood fall from his skin, you are going to pay it with every single hair you got on your body."

Sang Choo swallowed the lump in his throat upon hearing the words from Young Jae.

"Meet me tonight at the club. You have to pay the debt."

Click.

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Aish.For some reason.I just dont like this chapter.I have a feeling that you arent going to like it too.It feels like.....rushing.T_T

And I think you're going to be a bit confused.Wait.Youre not? =.="

In case you have this question in your head,

Why Sang Choo afraid of Young Jae?

Young Jae took over JaeJoong old gang.Just like how Sang Choo was afraid with jaeJoong, he fear Young Jae more becoz Young Jae is known as JaeJoong most trusted person.

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The bolded sentences arent mine.That's why I made it bold. :D

[FIC] First Love Chapter 7

Tue, 27 May 2008 17:19:03 GMT

Title: First Love
Author: tsushio
Pairing: Jaeho/Yunjae
Length: chaptered
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG13
Summary: Something happened in the past that changed the Kim's family.What happened to JaeJoong?What changed him?

But someone's here to tell a story of his 1st and special love.[sorry for the summary...T_T]

warning : The chapters are usually very short.Mistakes already part of my writing style.xDD.Sorry about that.The change in pov will be very obvious,be alert.Coz i dont feel like writing 'jaejoong's pov' in every change,it sounded boring and xD,unless it is other person than jaejoong.I'm a noob in writing.Sorry if my story is not good or confusing.

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Chapter 7
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"ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!!!"

My Saturday morning had been interrupted by a scream from the infamous, blond-headed Kim Junsu.

I wonder what I have done to him. -_-

"HYUNG!!!!"

My eyes are still trying to adjust the bright sunlight coming from the opened window. And I could hear Junsu banging the door just like he wanted to tear it apart from the wall.

"Hyung, I got a weird dream."

I don’t remember saying anything sounded like I'm asking him to come in but he's already sitting at the edge of my bed staring at me with his big eyes.

I still can’t see him clearly. The blurry vision I saw resembled a fashionable version of cookie monster with blond hair and dolphin voice. He looked like he's wearing something blue from the top down to his bottom. Maybe a pajama because all I could see just cloudy-like pattern on it.

I rubbed my eyes furious, trying to have a clear view of Junsu. He probably realized that when my eyes went into a thin slit as I moved my head forward a bit like an ostrich.

He dragged his duck butt closer to me and began to speak.

"It was a nightmare. I was flying with Yoochun when suddenly a huge ugly bird came and tapped Yoochun's head frantically. I was so afraid."

Interesting dream. But did he have to scream like a dying dolphin just to tell me that?

I think I'm going to fall asleep again. -0-

And who's Yoochun again?

"But what scarier was......."

"What?"

I muttered. My eyes lids are going to fall again if he didn’t continue his story in a faster rate.

"The bird looked like you."

So?

"Hyung, don’t you get it?"

My mind already half-asleep and now.......

He wanted me to do a some kind of riddle or something. I’m still trying to register everything he said for the past 10 minutes and now he's asking me a question.

I'm too drowsy to think. Sigh.

His eyebrows arched forward and he puckered his lips a bit.

If you asked me, its not cute at all. In a matter of fact, nothing looks cute in the eyes of a sleepy person who did not get an appropriate sleep for 12 hours. -0-

"What do you want, Junsu?"

" Hyung? Don’t you get it? Ugly bird~~....Look like you~~"

He said the last 4 words in a sing-song voice.

He looked more serious now.

What does he mean?

Maybe I should try to think deeper?

Think brain. Think~~. Think harder~~.

I brought my hand up to my head and pulled my hair out. Well ,just to get better effect.

15 minutes later

I'm tired now. I think I'm going crazy if I have to think that hard again.

Junsu looked anticipated, sitting across me with no motion.

But I still don’t get it.

What an ugly evil bird from his dream has anything to do with me? I don’t even dreamt of a bird that looked like me.

I looked at Junsu with teary eyes and shoke my head in a very slow motion.

He looked down and sighed loudly. Too loud until I thought anyone who walked passed my room could hear it.

"Forget it."

He got up and walked away towards the door. He muttered something to himself but I could hear it almost clearly.

"Chi. No fun. The old hyung would have curse then chase me around the house for hours. I’m deadly bored."

He ruffled his already messy hair and pulled the knob downward.

Before he close the door behind him, he was mumbling again. Sounded like he was saying Young Jae's name but my dead brain failed to process the information in the right way so it sounded to me like 'Young Jae is throwing stones into my room' or something like that.

I thought it sounded weird and not important. So, my body back again on the nice comfy mattress and I'm again under my blanket hugging Mr.Pingu hardly against my chest.

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1 hour and 59 minutes later

"Junsu!!!~"

I skipped happily towards the living room after getting the sleep time I lost last night.

Want to know what my dream was? It wasn’t as weird as the previous dreams where mostly about me getting involved with a confusing fight with a lot of words I've never heard before. More weird is when I was the one saying those meaningless words. I better stop talking about those weird dreams before my head started to take over the function of my heart, pumping blood to every part of my body.

Back again to what I dreamt of. I was on a huge ship. I’ve heard umma and appa said something about cruise ship. It looked like that.

Wait. Was it they were talking about an actor? I knew an actor by the name Tom Cruise. He’s very good looking and attractive.

But they were watching a documentary about huge ships. AHHH.

Never mind. My head is hurting again.

Back to the dream. I was on a huge ship. Everything was white. The floor. The wheel-looked-like-thing. Even the waitresses were white people. So weird. But scary, I was with the blue headed guy. I remember he told me his name. Jung Yunho (finally I had a dream about him..).We were having lunch and were looking so happy. He wiped off the stain on my lips. I held his hands. He smiled again widely. I smiled back. I poke a piece of meat with a fork and feed him. He smiled. I smiled back.

I know you'd be bored. So I conclude that, 3/4 of the dream was about me and Yunho grinning and giggling at each other. =.=""

We were couple in that dream. Having the thoughts about that cold-hearted person sent shivers down to my spine. Brrrr.

But all of sudden, a lot of stones flew out of nowhere hitting Yunho's hair.While he's winching in pain, I looked up and saw Young Jae throwing small rocks on Yunho's head and he was mumbling my name. He looked like he was doing some kind of spell.

That was it, I woke up when Young Jae was about to throw a huge stone (almost as the size of my head) to Yunho.That's was weird and scary. =.="

"Hyung, you’re up."

Junsu came out of nowhere (reminded me of the flying stones.. =.=") and beamed at me with his supposed-to-be-adorable grin. He was holding a plate with apples and oranges in it. In slices of course.

Suddenly, I remembered something.

"Junsu, who is Yoochun?"

He looked taken back with my question. The plate in his hands almost dropped on the floor upon hearing my voice. But remained compose after clearing his throat.

"Just a friend."

There, a very easy way to answer a simple question. He doesn’t have to look like a chocking puppy. It’s not like I'm going to bite him.

I walked heading to the refrigerator and looked for my mini pack of milk while Junsu headed towards the empty couch and sat with his legs crossed on the table. He already put the plate by his side and was munching the apples.

"Hfyung,Yfmoung Jfmae hfmad bfmeen thrfmowing stofmnes infmto yofmur rofmom."

I almost spat the milk I had in my mouth hearing the words coming from his mouth. I regretted for not taking the glass.Aish.

And is he talking in alien language? I can’t understand even a word. =.=""

"Junsu.Please talks properly."

He looked at me with wide eyes, mouth gaping and some of the half-munched apple fell on his lap.

He sighed heavily again. This time, louder than the time when he was in my room telling the ugly bird story.

"I think I'm going to go crazy with the polite Kim Jae Joong.Soon, I might end up being like him."

He left the empty plate on the couch (what a lazy bum... -_- ) and walked upstairs.Before he climbed up the stairs he said something to me.

"Young Jae had been throwing stones to your window. But since you let your window open, the stones went directly into you room. He’s been doing that for more than an hour but stop 30 minutes ago."

He left me dumbfounded on the living room with my hands holding into the mini pack of the milk. The glass already full but I'm still tilting the box until the milk spilled over the table.

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"What are you doing here?"

Young Jae was staring down at me (he was a bit taller than by an inch, but still shorter than blue haired guy) with bunch of stones in his palm.

"I called for you. I threw this stones. But I got tired and decided to take a break after you didn’t respond to my call."

That's explained the weird dream of stones and the 'Kim Jae Joong' spell. No wonder his voice in that dream sounded too real to be dream.

He looked tired and his eyes were so red. Almost like an apple.

I don’t know what to say. Obviously, it was my fault. But then again, why he didn’t wait for me inside the house. He’s bringing the trouble to himself.

"Why didn’t you come in?"

"Junsu threaten me with knifes and he said 'If you want to see my brother, have a taste of my mom's favorite set. Made in China.’ I don’t want to make a chaos so I stayed outside."

Awwww.I was very touched with Junsu.He's a very nice brother. I never knew he love me that much.Junsu ah, I’m going to buy you a lot of cotton candy.

Wait. Should I worry about Young Jae? Nahhh.He’s a grown up man. I like him but I love my brother more. :D

He's lucky it’s in the daylight. If he waited for me at night, he might have frozen to death. Stupid boy.*Shakes head*

"Hyung, want to go out with me?"

He was looking down at his shoes and playing with the hem of his shirt.

I wonder what's so interesting down there.

Maybe I should take a look too.

"Hyung, what are you doing?"

I looked up at him and our gaze met.

"I was looking at your shoes too. You’ve been looking at it for quite a long time."

He looked very.....like a cat caught in the washing machine.

But then he smiled. He’s very cute. ><

"We could go to the arcade, play games and grab some ice-creams."

Did he say ice-cream?O_O

"Sure!!!!Let’s go."

I think I like this guy as much as he likes me.:D

I'll just buy Junsu cotton candies in some other time.Sorry,Junsu. x]

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After playing a lot of games but with me kept losing to him ( _ ) , I decided to give up.

I sulked a little and was beginning to walk away when he held my wrist.

"Hyung, what about our ice-cream dates?"

Darn.He knew my weakness.

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15 minutes

We ended up sitting on the swing in front of a small store.

Yeah.The same store where Young Jae bought me ice-cream for the first time.

"Hyung."

"MMMmmm."

Man. I swore this ice-cream tasted 329889898 better this time. Did they do something to this ice-cream?

"Hyung."

I turned to him and he was smiling like a little kid who got his candy.

Lee Young Jae, have anyone tell you that you have a pretty smile. Because I think I'm addicted to your smile. >______________<

"Hyung.Do you know? Love is not about finding the perfect person, it's about finding the imperfect person perfect."

He darted his gaze away from and began smiling to the moon.

But what does he mean by that?

Do I have to understand it?

"Young Jae.Do I have to understand that?"

His smile died on my words. Did I just say something wrong?

"Hyung."

All of sudden he went down on his knees and sat in front of me.

"You don’t have to understand it. Because I'll understand it for you."

What does he mean?

"As for now, I'd be perfect for all of your imperfection."

"Yah.Kim Jae Joong."

I turned and saw last person who I'd want to see on earth.

How come he always knew where I was?

So annoying.

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p/s : Well,that's it for now.Mistakes already part of me.xD

Forgive me for that.

[FIC] First Love Chapter 6 part 2

Mon, 26 May 2008 16:02:18 GMT

Title: First Love
Author: tsushio
Pairing: Jaeho/Yunjae
Length: chaptered
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG13
Summary: Something happened in the past that changed the Kim's family.What happened to JaeJoong?What changed him?

But someone's here to tell a story of his 1st and special love.[sorry for the summary...T_T]

warning : The chapters are usually very short.Mistakes already part of my writing style.xDD.Sorry about that.The change in pov will be very obvious,be alert.Coz i dont feel like writing 'jaejoong's pov' in every change,it sounded boring and xD,unless it is other person than jaejoong.I'm a noob in writing.Sorry if my story is not good or confusing.

for prev. chapter, check my lj.

italic is either for sudden flashback or dream or out-of-conscious memory....unless stated~

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chapter 6 part 2
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Two years ago....

Young Jae's pov

"Oppa."

Park Ji Eun.

She the prettiest girl in our school.With small petite body, perfect complexion , waist-length silky black hair.She never failed to catch any attention from anyone.Guys drooled on her feet.Girls cursing under their breath.She have the Psyche aura that made everyone attracted.

And until now, I still cant believe she's Park Sang Choo's dongsaeng.They are like beauty and the beast.I bet one of them was adopted.

"I know."

She called me here, in the middle of our math class just to tell me she know something.When something comes out from her mouth, none I'm afraid is important.

"You like Jae Joong oppa, right?"

"How do you know?"

Cold sweats forming on my forehead.My legs shaking.She cant know.She can never know.I could imagine what she could do.She might looked tiny and innocent, but having Park Sang Choo as brother, nothing is impossible for her.

"Oppa, I'm a girl.I knew it long time ago."

My blood failed to reach my head.I bit my bottom lips, but I felt nothing.

Nobody in this school doesnt know how Ji Eun feel for Jae Joong.She had been liking him for more than 2 years.Of course, Jae Jong was aware about this also.BUt she's just nothing for him.He might have some 'conflict' with Sang Choo, but Ji Eun just like his own sister.He dont really like Sang Choo, but at least Ji Eun is better than her brother.

She confessed to him last week.The whole school knew it, even the teachers.

That he rejected her.

"What are you going to do?"

I asked her.I bet she's thinking deeply now.

Ji Eun had been staring the sky for quite a long time.Her bangs brushed against her clean forehead.He plump lips looked pale.But her eyes just plainly creepy.From far, students could have mistaken her as Sadako.With her long black hair, pale complexion, and she's standing like a doll with not much movement.

"Kill Jae Joong oppa."

I was like...O_O

I couldnt really see her point there.Why she wanted Jae Joong to die?She love him.Probably more than I do because she's a girl.

She turned to look at me with her cat-like eyes and started to take a few steps closer.

"Listen to me carefully.I wanted him to die because he dont see me more than a dongsaeng.He never did.You know how much I love him.It hurt when someone you love so much, just having you nothing more than a friend in his eyes."

I knew it, Ji Eun.Trust me.I do.

"I cant take the pain anymore.My heart is rotting inside.My soul slowly fading away with every day I spent with him.Knowing he can never be mine, it kills me more."

She took a deep breath before she continued.

"If he cant be mine, no one can."

Looking at the transparent beads forming in her eyes, I could feel her pain.

"But why me?"

I asked her more.She looked like she's hesitating for a while, but later she came up with an answer.

"Because you love him.Just like I do."

I have nothing to say.I love him with all my heart,even when I'm hurting inside.I can never hurt the person I love the most.

Turning my back at her, I started to walk away leaving her dumbfounded.

"I'm sorry.I cant."

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Today is his birthday.I cant wait to see him again.I missed him.

Well, we saw each other today in class.But waiting for him on the roof top with this piece of crumpled paper in my hand, every second passed felt like thousand years.I've practice every line last night.Everything is going to be perfect.When Jae Joong hear my confession , he has no reason to reject me.Like he did to Ji Eun. ><

"Young Jae."

I turned and Jae Joong is heading my direction , waving with a bouquet of rose in his hand.

Must be from one of his fans.

"Hyung."

I waved back and smiled hugely at him.He looked surprise but then he smiled back.

Maybe because he had never see smiling this huge.I always had a mess-with-me-you'll-die look on my face.

Man, I felt giddy inside my heart.Butterflies growing in my tummy.

I felt like a girl.( >___________< )

"Why did you call me?"

I walked to him and stretched my hands to his face.

"Happy birthday hyung!!"

He looked lost for a moment before a chuckle escaped his mouth.

What's so funny? O_o

"Thank you, Young Jae.But what's up with this crap-like paper?"

Finally I realized, I still got the paper I use to practice my lines in my hands.

Damnit.I though I've thrown it away.How come I'm still holding it now!??!

"Sorry, hyung."

I threw the paper to my side and searched for the sapphire-blue velvet case inside my pocket.

Now, where is it??

"Young Jae, what are you looking for??"

Jae Joong looked.....I cant explain how he looked like.Imagine a small kid who is very curious with large gold fish-like eyes and pink pouty adorable lips looking at you.So cute!!

I could only smiled nervously at him and continued my search.

Shit.Where's the fucking thing?!?!

"Young Jae, I have to tell you something."

He spoke before I could find the box inside my tiny pocket.

"I'm in love."

The sky fell on me the moment he opened his mouth again.My heart pounding, as if it's screaming to get out of my chest.I felt light.Seemed like all my fats had dispersed into the thin air.

I felt awfully skinny hearing those words.I'm shaking.My hands felt cold.But at my back, sweats pouring like waterfalls.

Hiding my feelings and nervousness, I asked him

"Who is she?"

"Not she.He."

Oh my god.I never had faith in god.I never believe you are real.

And I still think you are not real.

But did he like me too???He's confessing before me??

"His name is Jung Yun Ho."

He continued.Huge smile pasted on his face.He looked down on his shoes and blushed.He's happy.

But the name sounded familiar.I barely know a thing about that guy.I dont even know how he looked like.How come I dont know him?Hyung never held any secret between us before.

But the truth is killing me inside.The truth that he's in love with someone else.Not me.

I dont know what should I feel.I'm completely emotionless now.

My arms fell limp by my side.

My left hands accidentally brushed against the fabric that is sticking to my skin.

That's when I found the blue box.In another pocket. =.="

I took it out and kneeled down in front of him.I dont care.He's in love with someone else.But I still have to do this.

"Hyung,saranghae."

He stunned.I'm facing his shoes now.So I cant really tell how his face looked like.He might be smiling like idiot.Or worse, he might be having a stoic expression on his face.

I bet it was the 2nd option because his body stiffen and arched backward slightly.The bouquet in his hands fell on his side.

"I'm sorry."

That's all he said after more than 10 minutes of silence.He's was talking afterward.But I couldnt hear him because my mind went blank and I cant see nor hear anything.

But I know he already left when a quick cold breezes touches my face.

Now I understand Ji Eun completely.

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Tit Tot Tit Tit

"Hello."

"Young Jae oppa."

"Ji Eun.When do you want me to do it?"

"Oppa, are you sure?"

"When?How?"

"Meet me at the club at 8."

I'm sorry,Jae Joong.

"Thank you oppa."

I hung up on her and stared at the blue box in my hand.Suddenly,I hate the blue.Jae Joong loves blue.

But I hate it.

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"Oppa, I want you to kidnap me.Pretend that you wanted to kill me because Sang Choo oppa told you."

She's very pretty.With tight jeans skirt, a pink baby-tee, she looked cute.Almost innocent.

But nobody knows how dark her heart is.Even darker than her hair.

"When?"

I took a sip of vodka and put the glass back on the table.

I hate her.

"Tonight.At 12.Call Jae Joong oppa at 11.55 and tell him you have me.Tell him to meet you behind the building."

I walked away without words.But I took a bottle of vodka on the table with me.I'm going to need it tonight.

I'm sorry,Jae Joong.

Ji Eun,I have to kill you first.But I'm not sorry.

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p/s : I hope this part answered all the questions.But if there's still unanswered question, I'll try to add part 3. ;) .

Or I'll just reply the comment with the answer. :]

if this questions occur in ur mind,..in case....xD

why he killed Jae Joong when he love him that much?
-in his mind,just the same with Ji Eun.If he cant have Jae Joong, no one can.

why he still have to kill Ji Eun?Ist Ji Eun planned everything?
-He hate her.For the plan she made.And because she's the only witness if she stay alive.His afraid he'd get caught.

How Yunho found out that Young Jae killed Jae Joong?
-Later, news spread.But no proof.ONly Yunho knew it.Even Sang Choo know nothing about it.BUt he knew Jae Joong almost killed and his sister died in the same accident.

Why Yunho didnt tell Sang Choo?
-Again, no proof.No one is going to believe him unless Young Jae confess.

Edited

how did Young Jae manage to get people to kill Jae?
-Ji Eun secretly took some of Sang Choo's men to help her.

More info : So, those men knew how Jae and Ji Eun died.But they were more afraid of Young Jae than Sang Choo(becoz Young Jae is working with Jae Joong..and Jae Joong is famous with his evilness~~....).So, they end up siding on Young Jae.And working with Young Jae.Along with Jae Joong's old gang.

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[Hm, I still don't get about Jae's evilness...from the little flashback that you showed us..Jae didn't seemed evil...All he did was reject people's love???]

He's a leader of a gang.Remember in a chapter showing a bit flashback of Jae Joong asking for money from Sang Choo?Even Sang Choo was scared of him.

This chapter isnt everything happened in the past.Some will be reveal slowly in the upcoming chapters.

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